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Old 06-18-2015, 08:32 PM
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I am in a rabbit hole

Trying to get out. Damn.
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Old 06-18-2015, 08:46 PM
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Old 06-18-2015, 09:33 PM
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Hey Change. what's going on?...we are here...Let's talk about it!
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Old 06-18-2015, 09:51 PM
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Can you climb out?

Hang in there!
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Old 06-19-2015, 01:53 AM
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Maybe you need something to break the pattern- maybe a change of routine?
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Old 06-19-2015, 03:03 AM
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I relapsed, and I am scared.

It has never been this bad. I shake.
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Old 06-19-2015, 03:14 AM
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Maybe it's time to see your Dr and investigate some rehab programmes C4G?

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Change, I remember you from a year or two ago, it's tough to see you struggling, I'd chalk it up to a refresher course in bad judgement and get back on the wagon, ur smarter now for it. it's not the end of the world.
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Old 06-19-2015, 03:25 AM
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I'm sorry to hear it Change. You must be feeling terrible. What's making it worse for you this time?

By the way, been there recently so I really sympathise.
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Old 06-19-2015, 03:30 AM
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Hi Change, it is great you are posting...being scared can be a good thing, I was scared as well...can you use that fear to propel you forward and get some help from the doctor or ER to get you through the the first few days safely?...
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Old 06-19-2015, 05:18 AM
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Maybe it's time to see your Dr and investigate some rehab programmes C4G?

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Yes. You are spot on. I need to try something different. Anniversaries of deaths put me in a tailspin. I should have called my sponsor. Instead, I took a drink.

I need to let everyone know that I am an alcoholic. That way, they won't give me a glass of wine and say, "Here, this will make you feel better."

I had a bottle before they gave me that glass.
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I think there comes a point that you have to say I will do whatever it takes to get out of this and never look back. I really hope you're at that point C4G.

Leave no stone unturned. Do whatever it takes

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Hey there. You sound like you are in a lot of pain. I know what that feels like and it's truly hell. You are not alone. We have all been there and millions of people in the world have been exactly where you are and are now sober and happy.

Do you have a plan to help you out of the rabbit hole? You can do this!
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Glad you made it back in here, Change4good, but sorry you're hurting so much. We've all been there.

Dee's advice is spot on. Make a serious commitment to your recovery. Do whatever it takes to not feel this way again.
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Old 06-19-2015, 06:30 AM
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I appreciate the words you all have offered.

I need to safely get to the other side.
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I'm sorry you are struggling. It's hard. We've all been there and we are all in this together. The support here is fantastic. Hang in there. Hope you're feeling better soon
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You can do this. I know it's scary but you can get out of the hole. Talk to your dr, do whatever it takes.
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I used to get morose on the anniversaries of the deaths of my family members, too. It fueled a lot of my drinking. Well, more precisely - my loneliness and sadness fueled it. The anniversaries were just excuses to take it up a notch.

When I got sober, I was going to AA meetings. That Serenity Prayer was playing on a constant loop in my head. It works for everything. I realized I could not do one thing about the deaths. My family members would not want me to drink myself to death over their deaths. It was just their time.

I don't have to stay sad for the rest of my life. Alcohol just feeds that self-pity party and without it I'm able to keep life in perspective.

I hope you find your way out.
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This is a great place to start C4G.
https://store.samhsa.gov/shin/conten...0/SMA-3720.pdf

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