Moderating is killing me!
Moderating is killing me!
Hi friends,
Moderating doesn't work! Oh, you knew that already!?! Why didn't you tell me? Oh, you did? And I didn't listen? That makes more sense.
I'm having a hard time these days. Not awful... yet. But thought I should document how I'm feeling. I'll try and explain more tomorrow. I really want to be present here more. Trying on my own does.not.work.
~Pinot
Moderating doesn't work! Oh, you knew that already!?! Why didn't you tell me? Oh, you did? And I didn't listen? That makes more sense.
I'm having a hard time these days. Not awful... yet. But thought I should document how I'm feeling. I'll try and explain more tomorrow. I really want to be present here more. Trying on my own does.not.work.
~Pinot
Yes. Just haven't figured it out yet. It's weird, I could tell someone in my situation EXACTLY what to do, but I don't listen to myself. For a few years I wanted to learn to moderate. For the last few I think I've known that I CAN do it, but it hurts me more than helps me. I would give $1000.00 for someone to help me stop completely.
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Moderating is exceptionally difficult. I too thought I could pull that off, "just 1" I'd say as I cozied up to a bar to work....6 hours and 12 drinks later I was stone sober, but my stomach was pickled. My only solution to moderation is not starting. I have conquered it a few times...I'd have 1 or 2 then I'd go the rest of the day twitching my thumbs, strung up on anxiety and stress just dying to have another drink...I took that "moderation" out on those around me (family, friends, and even my employees and customers)
I am always good at dishing out suggestions to other people too but until I was good and ready, didn't want to follow my own advice. Stubborn that way. Hurts me no end because I think I give pretty sound ideas. What worked best for me was the good old one day at a time. Just for today, I won't drink.
Good luck. I found my sorry attempts at moderating to be the most anxiety ridden times of my life.
Good luck. I found my sorry attempts at moderating to be the most anxiety ridden times of my life.
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I am always good at dishing out suggestions to other people too but until I was good and ready, didn't want to follow my own advice. Stubborn that way. Hurts me no end because I think I give pretty sound ideas. What worked best for me was the good old one day at a time. Just for today, I won't drink.
Good luck. I found my sorry attempts at moderating to be the most anxiety ridden times of my life.
Good luck. I found my sorry attempts at moderating to be the most anxiety ridden times of my life.
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Oh yea...and I'm terrified of failing health. Even tonight, I noticed what I think is a new development of yellowing on the whites of my eyes...at 32 that scares the crap out of me.
Did the 35-50 drinks per week for so long kill my liver?
Those type of things are called reality checks...and yet they still don't stop the cravings...thus the moderating (and failure of such practice).
Did the 35-50 drinks per week for so long kill my liver?
Those type of things are called reality checks...and yet they still don't stop the cravings...thus the moderating (and failure of such practice).
Pinot I'm glad to see you back. I'm sorry that you are still vacillating on this, you know moderating is futile, you know you are on a slippery slope, you know what the tools are. Please don't wait to hit whatever your theoretical bottom is because a lot of people don't get out of there and you're missing out on the life you could have.
If I can do it you can too.
If I can do it you can too.
Hi Pinot, as a veteran failed moderator I found just stopping much more relaxing. I was sick of following the bottle around the table, wondering if I could squeeze in another drink, could I drive etc. Just really tiring.
Save your money. You can quit drinking for free. Today. And you've been given plenty of advice on how to do it. You just have to take action.
Start by surrendering the idea that you can ever drink again. Even one.
Start by surrendering the idea that you can ever drink again. Even one.
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When I hear about moderation I always have to remember: "It's easier to keep a lion in a cage than to keep a lion on a leash".
You can stop today. There is no secret (fortunately and unfortunately). You just stop and don't drink no matter what. It does get easier!
You can stop today. There is no secret (fortunately and unfortunately). You just stop and don't drink no matter what. It does get easier!
Hi Pinot!! We are always great at giving advice and never taking our own! Just take one day at a time! If "I" can do it, anyone can! I never in my life thought I would be THIS in control and it's an amazing feeling! I'm so proud of myself! Believe me, you CAN do it!! <3
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