Not today AV. Not today.
Its a cold and its a broken hallelujah.
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Not today AV. Not today.
Returned to the scene of my last epic binge over the holidays at my sanctuary by the sea . It's been almost six months since I was last here. And in the back of the fridge, amidst the outdated mayo and raspberry jelly, a bottle of my poison of choice.
Chardonnay.
There was a moment where it crossed my mind. But then I found I was already starting to plan what I would do when that bottle was finished.
That my friends, is what you call, alcoholism. I don't want a glass. I will NEVER want a glass. I want bottles and bottles and bottles.
Sobriety is just finally starting to get good again as I round out month five. I'm NOT going back. No way no shape no form.
And my new normal sure as heck beats chewing Xanax at 4:00 am.
Not today AV. And not tomorrow either.
Chardonnay.
There was a moment where it crossed my mind. But then I found I was already starting to plan what I would do when that bottle was finished.
That my friends, is what you call, alcoholism. I don't want a glass. I will NEVER want a glass. I want bottles and bottles and bottles.
Sobriety is just finally starting to get good again as I round out month five. I'm NOT going back. No way no shape no form.
And my new normal sure as heck beats chewing Xanax at 4:00 am.
Not today AV. And not tomorrow either.
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Originally Posted by alphaomega 
That my friends, is what you call, alcoholism. I don't want a glass. I will NEVER want a glass. I want bottles and bottles and bottles.
Sobriety is just finally starting to get good again as I round out month five. I'm NOT going back. No way no shape no form.
Sobriety is just finally starting to get good again as I round out month five. I'm NOT going back. No way no shape no form.
None and done!!
Its a cold and its a broken hallelujah.
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I was thinking as I was walking this morning in 110% humidity, there was no way I could have done this hungover. Once, after a particularly insane binge, I had to call for a ride home. My face had turned purple and my heart rate was 150.
Oh the days of wine and the constant loom of a potential seizure....
Oh the days of wine and the constant loom of a potential seizure....
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Way to go, AO. I am in roughly the same place as you. I think I've got control of my life, but once in a while, the AV returns. And even though I don't feel like I am on the uphill climb that I was in early sobriety, I guess there are still occasional obstacles to be avoided even when you are walking on a downhill slope.
I am really glad to hear that you are doing well. You have earned it. And you deserve it.
I am really glad to hear that you are doing well. You have earned it. And you deserve it.
Its a cold and its a broken hallelujah.
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I caught an aerial glimpse of something huge moving in the water. I quickly realize it's a manatee and her calf. So I get all excited and call in the whole family to hear my lecture on manatee, and how they mother for three years, and the baby stays so close the whole time. And I go on and on about look how attached they are and omg isn't that so precious and I start to tear up and blab blah blah.
Then, the other manatee detached and went his separate way.
Yep. I witnessed a manatee booty call. :/
Then, the other manatee detached and went his separate way.
Yep. I witnessed a manatee booty call. :/
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AO - proud of you for rising above that temptation. I agree, it's never going to be 'a glass' for us ever again. Once we realize that, we can begin to heal. Have a lovely time by the water.
Its a cold and its a broken hallelujah.
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Originally Posted by Dee74
Must have been an Aussie dugong AO, lol 
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There was a woman swimming about 10 feet from them, completely oblivious to the goings on.
Makes you wonder what we miss while we're busy living.
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Hi AO...just seeing this now. Woop! So glad that you are in a good place. I sure appreciate your posts and perspectives.
About those bottles and bottles and bottles. Whenever I imagine drinking a glass, all I can see is how even a trough held up before me - splashing and gurgling - would never be enough. Terrifies me a bit, actually.
Woop! So glad that you are in a good place. I sure appreciate your posts and perspectives.About those bottles and bottles and bottles. Whenever I imagine drinking a glass, all I can see is how even a trough held up before me - splashing and gurgling - would never be enough. Terrifies me a bit, actually.
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