My Journal, My Plan
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My Journal, My Plan
Each weekend I drink. On Sunday in the middle of the night I awake ~2am and can't get to sleep until ~5am, only to wake an hour later for work. To be honest, I really don't have bad hangovers anymore. I am an IPA beer drinker, it's all I drink, and it's what I love.
Monday and Tuesday I usually won't have a drink and then by Wednesday I start all over again. Usually, on a random Monday I come in here and post in a monthly thread that I'm done. I don't have any conviction when I post there but for some reason I think that's all it takes. It's sad how many beers I can take down each night, being less active with my children, being less focused at work, etc. In my head, I always talk about finally quitting.
It's rare my children see me without a drink in my hand at night.
I rarely have a physical reaction to withdrawing from alcohol; obviously that could change but each Monday I tell myself just go one week and I can never make it that one week. I always have a "good" reason to grab that beer.
I am finally done and took this afternoon off from working (still at work but not doing work) to come on here, read and understand, and make a plan. My plan begins today on July 8th, 2015:
1. Admit that I do have a problem
2. Buy de-caffeinated coffee as I love coffee and can substitute that at night for beers
3. Purchase a recovery book
4. Meditate 5 minutes each morning
5. Pray for myself each morning, night, and anytime I have an urge
6. Post in this Journal everyday
7. Tell people I have quit drinking. None of this "taking a break" crap anymore
8. Begin AVRT
Monday and Tuesday I usually won't have a drink and then by Wednesday I start all over again. Usually, on a random Monday I come in here and post in a monthly thread that I'm done. I don't have any conviction when I post there but for some reason I think that's all it takes. It's sad how many beers I can take down each night, being less active with my children, being less focused at work, etc. In my head, I always talk about finally quitting.
It's rare my children see me without a drink in my hand at night.
I rarely have a physical reaction to withdrawing from alcohol; obviously that could change but each Monday I tell myself just go one week and I can never make it that one week. I always have a "good" reason to grab that beer.
I am finally done and took this afternoon off from working (still at work but not doing work) to come on here, read and understand, and make a plan. My plan begins today on July 8th, 2015:
1. Admit that I do have a problem
2. Buy de-caffeinated coffee as I love coffee and can substitute that at night for beers
3. Purchase a recovery book
4. Meditate 5 minutes each morning
5. Pray for myself each morning, night, and anytime I have an urge
6. Post in this Journal everyday
7. Tell people I have quit drinking. None of this "taking a break" crap anymore
8. Begin AVRT
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Join Date: Jul 2014
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Glad you're here!
The best part of a plan is the demonstration of willingness to change.
My plan did not include #7. It did not seem necessary in my case - I'd let others figure it out or not........
Keep coming back - thanks for the thread
The best part of a plan is the demonstration of willingness to change.
My plan did not include #7. It did not seem necessary in my case - I'd let others figure it out or not........
Keep coming back - thanks for the thread
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Hi halfvictory
This link has some good info. Check out the SAMSHA link towards the bottom of the thread especially.
best wishes to you
D
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
This link has some good info. Check out the SAMSHA link towards the bottom of the thread especially.
best wishes to you
D
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
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Originally Posted by halfvictory 
1. Admit that I do have a problem
2. Buy de-caffeinated coffee as I love coffee and can substitute that at night for beers
3. Purchase a recovery book
4. Meditate 5 minutes each morning
5. Pray for myself each morning, night, and anytime I have an urge
6. Post in this Journal everyday
7. Tell people I have quit drinking. None of this "taking a break" crap anymore
8. Begin AVRT
Later on today I will get to reading more on AVRT. Thanks for the support and I'll check out that post Dee. Thanks
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We all are praying and rooting for you... You have a good plan.. I really like #7 " Tell people I have quit drinking. None of this "taking a break" crap anymore " .
It takes , lots of courage to announce that.. We usually say " not feeling well or taking break " To me , that is an escape window we keep, , to avoid embarrassment , in case , we relapse.. You have shown great courage and commitment.. Halfvictory, you will be able to do it... Stick to your plan.
It takes , lots of courage to announce that.. We usually say " not feeling well or taking break " To me , that is an escape window we keep, , to avoid embarrassment , in case , we relapse.. You have shown great courage and commitment.. Halfvictory, you will be able to do it... Stick to your plan.
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Good job on Day 1 Halfvictory. You can do this. I was in the same spot you are about a year ago; although I was drinking every day. My kids and wife suffered because my main priority was drinking.
Everyone around you will benefit from the work you put into to your sobriety. Stick to your plan, don't give in. You will wake up the next morning and thank yourself for beating your AV for that day.
When it seems like you are going to cave, jump on here and post away. We are here to help.
Trust me, it gets easier as time goes on; you won't regret this decision!
Everyone around you will benefit from the work you put into to your sobriety. Stick to your plan, don't give in. You will wake up the next morning and thank yourself for beating your AV for that day.
When it seems like you are going to cave, jump on here and post away. We are here to help.
Trust me, it gets easier as time goes on; you won't regret this decision!
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