6 months!
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6 months!
I am in disbelief that I have made it this far! I haven't been capable of stringing together this much sober time in years and years! This morning I have been thinking about just how different it is this time around, and trying to figure out what it is I am doing different.
It's amazing how one can feel a connection through computer generated text on a screen. A connection that attracts, and inspires me to get to know and to model the success of such a wonderful group of healthy people here! I am thankful that I live in an era where people can virtually meet from around the globe and try to crack this problem of addiction and carry on with our lives in a meaningful and productive way.
This past month has been a tremendous challenge. I got to a point where I felt I needed to find people like ourselves IRL, I felt a desire to actually meet people who had discovered a new way of living. I was getting frustrated as to why I couldn't meet people like the people of SR who understood me in real life! After running into someone from the last time I tried AA who mentioned a meeting happening that night I did! I finally decided to "get over it", and go see what the AA, NA rooms had to offer. I left my past judgments at the door and went in in a rather vulnerable state. At the 3rd meeting I opened up to the group, I wasn't planning on it, but it just kind of came out. I ended up sharing, and bearing my soul to this group of strangers and it was extremely therapeutic. I actually felt an enormous weight lift off, a weight that in my past I would have let get so heavy that I would have ended up drinking in an attempt to remedy it. I realize that this time I am just taking what works for me from each program and leaving the rest if is not helpful. I'm not stressing on perfection so much to adhere to one program, but to build my own program that works and one that I can stick to.
As for the divorce, I think I am actually moving forward. Creating a new life for myself is the key to it. I am not future tripping on whether or not I will find a suitable mate ever again and just trusting that staying sober and setting goals will bring me to where I am supposed to be. I had to discard a lot of old ideas and other peoples expectations that I could never live up to as to how a relationship is supposed to work. This time is my time, and I am fulfilling my own expectations. A new sober, happy life. It is scary and exciting at the same time. I have hope.
So this month I have added another tool to my toolbox which I intend to use.
Thanks everybody for being such a great support.
Justin
It's amazing how one can feel a connection through computer generated text on a screen. A connection that attracts, and inspires me to get to know and to model the success of such a wonderful group of healthy people here! I am thankful that I live in an era where people can virtually meet from around the globe and try to crack this problem of addiction and carry on with our lives in a meaningful and productive way.
This past month has been a tremendous challenge. I got to a point where I felt I needed to find people like ourselves IRL, I felt a desire to actually meet people who had discovered a new way of living. I was getting frustrated as to why I couldn't meet people like the people of SR who understood me in real life! After running into someone from the last time I tried AA who mentioned a meeting happening that night I did! I finally decided to "get over it", and go see what the AA, NA rooms had to offer. I left my past judgments at the door and went in in a rather vulnerable state. At the 3rd meeting I opened up to the group, I wasn't planning on it, but it just kind of came out. I ended up sharing, and bearing my soul to this group of strangers and it was extremely therapeutic. I actually felt an enormous weight lift off, a weight that in my past I would have let get so heavy that I would have ended up drinking in an attempt to remedy it. I realize that this time I am just taking what works for me from each program and leaving the rest if is not helpful. I'm not stressing on perfection so much to adhere to one program, but to build my own program that works and one that I can stick to.
As for the divorce, I think I am actually moving forward. Creating a new life for myself is the key to it. I am not future tripping on whether or not I will find a suitable mate ever again and just trusting that staying sober and setting goals will bring me to where I am supposed to be. I had to discard a lot of old ideas and other peoples expectations that I could never live up to as to how a relationship is supposed to work. This time is my time, and I am fulfilling my own expectations. A new sober, happy life. It is scary and exciting at the same time. I have hope.
So this month I have added another tool to my toolbox which I intend to use.
Thanks everybody for being such a great support.Justin
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Congratulations on 6 months! Thank you for sharing this. It's beneficial to see someone recognize a need in their life and then be flexible and open-minded enough to try options they may not have been too keen on.
Keep up the good work!
Keep up the good work!
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Wow, Justin, great post!
Congratulations on 6 months sober and your outlook shows how well you are doing in your recovery.
I, too, am incredibly grateful for this 'home' we have created here where we can gather and share our journeys.
Congratulations on 6 months sober and your outlook shows how well you are doing in your recovery.
I, too, am incredibly grateful for this 'home' we have created here where we can gather and share our journeys.
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