txsobernurse

Hi guys!

Today is my new clean date. I've been through this time and time again previously but this time I think it's worse than it's ever been. I've gained 80lbs in a year. This is draining my funds. I'm scared, uncomfortable and feel hopeless.
If I don't stop drinking, I will die. I know it.

So, I need your support, okay? I'm fighting for my life.

greens

Welcome sober nurse

txsobernurse

Hi, thanks! Hoping to do it right this time and knock off some of this awful weight gain.

DuhDave

You'll find tons of help and support here nurse.

Welcome to SR.

DD

gettingsmarter

Welcome fellow Texan.

SDH73

Hi, txsobernurse. You've found a great place for support here. Welcome.

txsobernurse

Thanks, everyone. It means a lot to have support.

txsobernurse

Every day after work, I go to the gas station and pick up 3-4 four lokos and drink one on the way home, finishing them all in one night and wake up the next morning hating myself. What do you guys recommend to avoid hitting the gas station? I've tried turning the radio up and talking on the phone and self-talk all to divert my attention, but then I get so anxious that I exit to get to a gas station. I mean, I need help. Bad.

Coldfusion

My wife and I set a solid foundation for our sobriety by going to AA meetings at drinking time. We did ninety meetings in ninety days--I still go to meetings two years later, but she does not. It's worth giving it a try at least!

ishallnotwant

Welcome sober nurse! Maybe write down the reasons that not drinking is to your benefit. And/or, list how you think drinking might be of help (for example, anxiety) and think of alternate ways to manage (or jump on here, tell us your thoughts and we'll help. Stay close

greens

How late do you get off work? Its helpful to have another activity planned during the time we would normally drink

Lenina

Welcome! What have you done in the past? Can you mix up the routine on the drive home? Have you tried any recovery methods? Rational Recovery worked best for me. Have you read about it?

Love from Lenina

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ined-long.html

txsobernurse

coldfusion, i used to go to meetings daily and even held a chair position at my home group (i prefer NA over AA) but that was when i was living with a friend and didn't have a job. now i'm in nursing school and work at a hospital and have a five year old. i am out of the house from 6am-1030pm so it's incredibly hard for me to find time to go to meetings, although I'd love to go. I was actually thinking about taking my sorry butt back to my homegroup tonight after my daughter's pre-k graduation but since I grew up in that room, i'm really anxious about judgment. especially since i've gained so much weight. i don't know what else to do.

txsobernurse

greens, i get out of class at 1030p and don't get home till about 1130. i get on average about 3 hours of sleep depending on how fast i can down all the alcohol. its like, i know how awful i look and feel, but the urge is just so great. my friend used to joke and say that i would be sober if it weren't for the creation of gas stations.

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum Txsobernurse!!

Lenina

What recovery methods have you tried? rational recovery and AVRT work for me. Here's a link to the secular section with an explanation. It's long, but we'll worth the read. Maybe you could plan to read it each evening?

Love from Lenina

AVRT Explained (long) - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ined-long.html

least

Welcome to the family! You'll find lots of support and useful info here.

txsobernurse

thanks, lenina! ill check it out

txsobernurse

wait there's no link lol

Lenina

OK, I think I got the links copied and pasted right! Give them a read and see if it makes sense to you. It really helped me!

Love from Lenina