BlissWithin

3.5 months

I had 1 NA beer last week that had 0.5 percent alcohol and I really think I felt something, it wasnt a buzz and I didnt crave more it was kinda of an unpleasant feeling.

I got really mad at this because I usually buy the 0.0 percent ones, but they were out, and I didnt drink expecting to feel anything as I made the calculation I drank less than 2 ml of alcohol, thats less than half of a teaspoon of booze, so maybe that episode was more psychological and I'm making a big deal out of it.

I dont see a problem with NA beer as beer was not my drink of choice (I drank cachaça) but I think I may not drink them for a while after that.

Soberwolf

Some ppl drink Na beer some dont ... i dont just because its way to close the real thing

Congrats on 3.5 months blessWithin

Dee74

Congrats BW - keep ignoring that AV talk
If beer was never your thing, why drink NA beer - there's plenty of yummy totally non alcoholic drinks out there

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BlissWithin

You make a good point. I guess NA beer works as some kind of crutch for those who still want some kind of connection to their drinking days.

MythOfSisyphus

Congrats, BlissWithin! That's a great milestone!

BlissWithin

Four months sober.

This is the longest time I have ever been clean from all mind-altering substances.

I still may be in early recovery, but things are pretty solid. I think to myself, the worst/best situation can happen to me and I will not drink or use. The only thing I fear is that I wake up someday and change my mind, but I find that extremely difficult, almost impossible to happen.

That's all I have for now, see you in the next update!

Hypernova

Four months is awesome, thanks for sharing!

BlissWithin

5 months today.

I feel very grateful for being able to do this, and of course, I read the forums everyday to remind me the struggles I had with my addictions. I dont miss the highs and lows, life now is calm and peaceful.

Bellamiaa

Congrats!!! 5 months is amazing!!!

Time2Rise

Well done on two months Bliss, and good luck with school. I returned to college in my late 20's to finish my degree, and looking back, it was one of the best decisions I ever made. I'm positive that 10 or 20 years from now you will be glad you returned.

Dee74

well done blisswithin
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Soberwolf

Congrats BlissWithin

PixieD

Congrats to 5 months of your new life!

BlissWithin

6 months!

I guess I shouldnt expect my mind to change at only 6 months but I still think of drinking / smoking weed as "fun" activities for people who are not addicted. I dont think they will ever be fun again for me, I'm 100% sure of that, no matter how long I stay sober, I know If I ever relapse the only option is to get into recovery again but I still get amused when I hear that a friend of mine got drunk at a party and did some stupid thing and sometimes I watch videos of people playing drinking games on youtube and I find it very funny.

I may be overthinking this issue? Do I have to think that drinking is morally wrong to feel better or safer about my recovery?

Carver

Well done, that's awesome

Dee74

Congrats BlissWithin

I don't find it necessary to think of drinking as some moral issue at all.

I have made the conscious choice not to drink based on my experiences - other people are free to make the choice to drink and that doesn't bother me - its none of my business.

but...where I do differ a little from you is that I can't see drinking - or drinking as we'd define it: drinking to get wasted - as fun anymore.

Whenever I see drinkers worse for wear I really find it sad & not amusing at all.
Maybe I'm projecting - but I see a real unhappiness there

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sva777

Great job!

BlissWithin

Thanks for the reply Dee.

I guess I could say that was some kind of AV talking earlier, I had really bad times with booze in the past, but now that my life is fine I may be forgetting why I stopped in the first place.

Dee74

I think thats pretty common Bliss.

I used to forget how bad it was, or more accurately I used to think I could manage my intake better and have everything turn out ok.

I was still tied to the idea of 'drinking=fun' too.

Why not think of some non-alcoholic fun things to do - go to the movies, have a picnic, go out for coffee or a nice meal at a unlicensed cafe - pursue hobbies and interests....

the more fun things I did without alcohol helped redefine for me what fun was - and I needed to do that

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LBrain

congrats on 2 months - and six.

How about instead of "IF I don't screw this up."

Change it to, "I won't screw this up"
Stay positive, no good comes from doubting yourself.