Blogs


Notices

Day 2

Old 05-26-2015, 02:17 AM
  # 1 (permalink)  
Member
Thread Starter
 
Join Date: Feb 2014
Posts: 45
Day 2

Fell off again, I'm such a failure. It's affecting health big time, spent the last 24 hours being sick, bf and family think it's a bug. He's away next week and it terrifies me to be alone. I don't live with him and have pushed most family and friends away.

My chest feels so tight with anxiety, started taking the antidepressants again, they didn't help before so sort of think why should they now.

I just need help. My job as a teacher is at risk if I carry on but afraid to get help for the real reason as I'm afraid the school will find out and get rid of me anyway.

I know if I get sober it would be better. It's the loneliness in an evening that gets to me, my friend in disguise alcohol is in fact the devil. When I am sober I know I feel better but how do I do it alone?
rl41 is offline  
Old 05-26-2015, 02:24 AM
  # 2 (permalink)  
Administrator
 
Dee74's Avatar
 
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 188,586
Blog Entries: 1
Maybe the answer is not to do it alone rl41?

what about joining a group thread like the Class of May?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-3-a-7.html

or joining the 24 hour Recovery connection thread - it's a great way to make a commitment to daily sobriety?

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...t-59-a-14.html

There's some great ideas about making a better recovery plan here, as well as information on real life support like AA & other recovery groups

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html

D
Dee74 is offline  
The Following User Says Thank You to Dee74 For This Useful Post:
mecanix (05-26-2015)
Old 05-26-2015, 02:47 AM
  # 3 (permalink)  
Member
Thread Starter
 
Join Date: Feb 2014
Posts: 45
Thank you Dee, I know in the long run I'll be better sober, that's the irritating thing. My chest feels so tight, I just want to be happy and normal again
rl41 is offline  
The Following User Says Thank You to rl41 For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (05-26-2015)
Old 05-26-2015, 02:51 AM
  # 4 (permalink)  
Administrator
 
Dee74's Avatar
 
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 188,586
Blog Entries: 1
you will rl - hang in there

D
Dee74 is offline  
Old 05-26-2015, 02:52 AM
  # 5 (permalink)  
Member
Thread Starter
 
Join Date: Feb 2014
Posts: 45
Thank you Dee, I can't express how thankful I there are people like you out there.
rl41 is offline  
The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to rl41 For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (05-26-2015), mecanix (05-26-2015)
Old 05-26-2015, 03:48 AM
  # 6 (permalink)  
Catch and Release
 
Calicofish's Avatar
 
Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: Crazy Canuck
Posts: 379
Hi Rl41 -

Wow - can I relate to your post. That tight chest feeling brings back such dreadful memories. That is anxiety at its worst. I know that feeling so well. But I will tell you, that drinking actually causes it. It might take it away for awhile, but after you finish drinking, here comes the anxiety train down that track.

I drank for many reasons - loneliness being one of them. It doesn't make it better at all and it only made me feel like death in the mornings and of course made me feel miserable. It's a vicious cycle and the only way off is to stop drinking.

Problems will still be there, but they will be easier to manage and the one problem you won't have is the crappy hangovers and no energy.

You can do it.
CF
Calicofish is offline  
Old 05-26-2015, 04:56 AM
  # 7 (permalink)  
Member
 
Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: C.C. Ma.
Posts: 3,699
Hi RI.
I waited almost too long to take action against my case of alcoholism by procrastination and found out that the longer path takes a toll mentally, emotionally and physically.

We find out how powerful, cunning, baffling, insidious and patient alcohol is dictating what we do instead of what we need.

There is excellent advice on these forums that work to get us sober and into recovery IF followed. I/we needed to learn all over again our way of thinking and reactions to life stresses without resorting to try escaping the pain.

AA is often rejected but has helped millions over the years and only cost $1 donation for a lifesaving way of life.

We have choices; hopefully a lifesaving one is taken.

BE WELL
IOAA2 is offline  
Old 05-26-2015, 08:47 AM
  # 8 (permalink)  
Member
Thread Starter
 
Join Date: Feb 2014
Posts: 45
Thanks guys it means so much. Been to the doctors for some meds to help with anxiety, just feel like someone's standing on my chest.

Have a plan for the next two days, trying to immerse myself with family. Have so much planned and looking forward to over the next few months, I know if I can make it next week with my bf gone I can make it longer.

I'll be on here daily now, no more excuses
rl41 is offline  
Old 05-26-2015, 08:53 AM
  # 9 (permalink)  
Administrator
 
Anna's Avatar
 
Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
Posts: 53,952
I'm glad you've talked to your dr and that's a great first step. If you are worried about confidentiality, you could try talking to a therapist or counsellor. Have faith that you will be able to do this and to live a sober life.
Anna is offline  

Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
 
Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are Off




All times are GMT -7. The time now is 04:13 AM.