Dee74

last part here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...1-26-a-20.html

ZaBoozer

Ha, Beat you all. Work for me Holidays for you guys. Enjoy.

brynn

Thanks Dee and congrats Ruby!

brynn

Crud! You beat me by mere seconds! Have fun at work!

Della1968

Thank you Dee.

It's good to see you Pouncer. Hang out for a bit

So I went to the wedding. It was lovely. Then at the end I had a little meltdown. Not over not drinking that didn't phase me. I had a pretty infamous DWI in January. This was the first big event I have been to since then. It was very draining being around that many people who knew about my rock bottom. I know I could have not gone but it was my best friends daughter's wedding and she is one of the few who stood by me unconditionally. I felt I needed to go for her. I am hoping now that I have done this it will get easier doing these things.

Totally different running into people here and there at Wal-Mart than to have 300 of them gathered in one spot all at once. Small town living in all it's glory. But I did eat cake

brynn

I was just wondering how the wedding went, Della. I'm glad you were able to test the waters a bit and get it over with....the next time will be easier I'm sure. Hope you can relax tonight maybe a bubble bath? Oh....what kind of cake and how did your hair turn out?

Ruby2

Way to go Della! I'm glad you survived it. Now you can kick off your shoes and relax. I'm doing that right now.

No one called "shotgun"

Pouncer

I am doing blah. I have been dealing with ongoing PTSD issues for the last month. I get like this once every two years or so. It is unbearable - but somehow I didn't relapse. P doc gave me a short supply of benzos to get through it. Finding a new therapist who specializes in trauma/addiction. I came close to relapsing today, but didn't.

Glad to see Della, Dee, Ruby ZaB and all plugging along.

Della1968

It was chocolate and vanilla mixed. I would have rather had ice cream I don't love cake. The hair turned out good. Got it cut Fri so there would be less of it to color good thing because I didn't have extra time to mess with it! It's a little lighter than usual but it will be ok as long as I am tan.

For the record I hate Spanx. Sometimes they are a necessary evil but they may have had something to do with my meltdown.

Ruby2

At least this baby is one I don't have to get up every three hours to feed and change.

How are you Pouncer? Good to see you.

I'm off for ice cream. I'm sticking with my chunky monkey until I find a new absolute can't live without favorite

MesaMan

I eschew Spanx as well.

Della1968

Glad you didn't relapse Pouncer. I struggle with PTSD as well and usually have some sort of bender in Sept and Feb. I got through Feb and hope to be really solid in Sept. Just keep swimming.

brynn

Your hair sounds good Della and I'm with you on the ice cream. I've never worn spanx but I can only imagine they could wreak havoc on your emotions! Blah! The lengths we go to for beauty!

Pouncer

OMG, thank you for sharing, Della. I had a revelation that my response to everything is to numb or dissociate. Longstanding trauma conditions a person to survive by way of unhealthy habits. The trick to everything (sobriety, achievement, happiness) is to deal with how I deal.

This has been the worst period of PTSD I can remember and I got through it sober. That's a start.

Ruby2

I'm glad you're hanging in there Pouncer. You've really come far. You're strong.

Brynn, I've never worn spanx either. Della, I'm not anxious to try them. I'm glad your hair turned out well.

brynn

Well done, pouncer! I hope things get better for you soon.

Dee74

(((Pouncer)))

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brynn

I just realized this was MM....I thought it was GettingSmarter! They have similar avatars!! Ha!

Ruby2

Yes, Brynn, it was Mesa Man. That cracked me up.

gettingsmarter

They have spanx for men now. I'd consider wearing them if I was going to be on Ninja Warrior.