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Old 05-23-2015, 09:18 AM
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I am afraid I'm one of "those" people

Thinking that I am unique and better than the people at aa ect. has probably been one of the reasons that I have always had epic fail trying to put down the bottle. I mean I knew I had a drinking problem but it wasn't that bad right? I don't need help this is normal all the guys drink like me right? So what if it runs in the family I'm different? Once I was sentenced to jail because of drinking I knew that all that was false. I never seriously made the decision to quit until I was in a cell. There were 16 people to my cell but it was the loneliest place I have ever been. I knew at that moment when I first walked through those gates that the only way in hell I'm not coming back here for sure is to become a sober man. Throughout my life I have never chose to learn the easy way And I always felt so smart smarter
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Old 05-23-2015, 09:38 AM
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Yes. Alcohol. The great equalizer. None of us better or worse just addicted.

Glad you came to that conclusion as well
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I understand exactly how you felt. For the longest time I thought my oxy addiction was not a problem, after all I had an Rx, I wasn't on the street 'buying drugs'!!
When I realized I couldn't stop, I was using more and more, I wasn't taking them for any of the right reasons, I finally realized that drug addiction is drug addiction. The same for everyone. It doesn't matter what the drug is or how it's obtained. Drugs do not care who you are!!

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One thing I realized about AA is there was a ton of people who were leading happy sober lives and I wasn't. It was a humbling experience when I wanted what they had and they sure as hell didn't want what I had.
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I was special and different too. I wasn't one of 'those people' either.

Only I was. When I eventually was able to accept this, I found long lasting sobriety and peace of mind.
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There's a quote about being the best version of yourself that I try and remember when I have the tendency to compare my life with those around me. I am only in competition with myself. And that applies to my addiction and my recovery
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Old 05-23-2015, 01:17 PM
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Thinking that I am unique and better than the people at aa ect. has probably been one of the reasons that I have always had epic fail trying to put down the bottle. I mean I knew I had a drinking problem but it wasn't that bad right? I don't need help this is normal all the guys drink like me right? So what if it runs in the family I'm different? Once I was sentenced to jail because of drinking I knew that all that was false. I never seriously made the decision to quit until I was in a cell. There were 16 people to my cell but it was the loneliest place I have ever been. I knew at that moment when I first walked through those gates that the only way in hell I'm not coming back here for sure is to become a sober man. Throughout my life I have never chose to learn the easy way And I always felt so smart smarter
I got cut off here I finally realized I am one of these people and it was like I have seen the light. I am not going to give up on sobriety because that would be giving up on myself
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