Yep....drunk and,
 

Very close to saying adios motherf*ckers or trying to capture all the crap that has become my life. Its a coin flip at this point.

not looking for attention. Just a realistic look at my future.

Thomas, sleep it off and come back tomorrow. You've made a lot of progress. Don't lose all of that just because of one weak moment.

sleep it off? its noon where I am.

Dump out what you have so you can sleep it off tonight. Or take a nap. Taking it out on those who have supported you all this time isn't helping anyone, especially you.

I just meant to give this some thought once you are sober.

10-4. sorry if I offended anyone. It is never my intent. Ever.

thomas11, I know things seem bad now. But things can get better. Things WILL get better. We are all living proof of that.

Please give yourself a chance. We believe in you. You just gotta try to believe in yourself.

There is a better, happier and more fulfilling way to live; you are so close to finding and experiencing it, thomas/Jeff; don't give up.

I've been at this same point a few times over the past 3 years. I quit many times and relapsed many times. Weeks, months and finally today, 14 1/2 months sober. I've wanted to throw in the towel so many times but I knew that deep down inside, there was still a strong man who could conquer this beast. Be bold, be strong, be determined to kick this mother's ass. You can do it.

Hang in there man. You know you can do this and you also know how hard it is.

Drinking won't help get your life back together. It is definitely worth all of the effort you put in.

Don't let this relapse stop you from winning this fight.

We have confidence in you.

Have a nap and come back. Honestly, I have been here enough times to feel awful about myself whilst drunk, but sober you can come here and make a plan. You've got this, you don't need to continue on this path.

From earlier this month:

And now you are drinking. Just like you called it. That's called a self-fulfilling prophecy. The addictive voice loves when you get a running jump on a relapse.

Hope you come back here sober and take to heart the advice you are bound to get.

I hate to throw a cold bucket of water on your analysis, but wrong and wrong.

A coin flip is a random event. There is nothing random in the decision you are making. My addiction used to tell me it was random, that I had no control over the situation. I believed it when it was convenient, but it's a lie.

No one makes a realistic look at their future when they are drunk. FFS, that's why most of us got drunk.

I look forward to your next sober post. :ring

Thank you carl, but believe me, when I posted I was not oblivious to the fact that I would receive some backlash. But, I posted, I did not lie about it.

I might be a little different case here on this site. In the past, things have been very dark, which is what brought me to this site. Things are no longer dark, I just enjoy a drink or two now and then. But I know its not "right". Please understand, I am not in a dark place or think things are bad. I'm just drinking a little. Things are actually quite good.

Soberleigh, I wish i could give you two "thanks". I know you are very active on this site (along with others) and I appreciate it.

Thanks man, I'm not going down the toilet, just drinking a little bit. And I'm enjoying it.

Can't argue with you there. I agree.

''Very close to saying adios motherf*ckers or trying to capture all the crap that has become my life''

Drunk you and sober you don't agree

I am busted. Wow, can't believe it wrote that.