Lscotty1

I am two weeks sober and I'm still absolutely insane. I have depression anxiety and PTSD. I'm also the worst hypochondriac I've ever met. I can't stop thinking about worst-case scenario things. I am almost paralyzed with fear. I thought about drinking today, but I called my sponsor trying to keep my head together. I don't know how to do this. I just don't want to die. I don't want to be this crazy. I want to feel that there is hope instead of tragedy. The thoughts I am having are so horrible. I can't cope.

Aellyce

Hi Lscotty.

Congrats on 2 weeks
Have you considered getting professional help with these issues you mention? I started therapy a couple months sober and it helped tremendously in a few ways. One of these was actually convincing me that I wasn't really crazy, just had some problems that needed to be addressed.

I think calling your sponsor was a great reaction and also posting here. Hang in there.

EDIT: Just saw your other thread. Do go to the ER if you feel like it, it can be very helpful to just getting checked out and talking to someone. I also visited the ER a couple times thinking I was going insane; I wasn't.

sugarbear1

Can your sponsor guide you through those steps for relief? early AA's worked the process first.....

Lscotty1

We have gone through step one. Called her this morning and nothing is helping. I feel like I am going to break.

PurpleKnight

2 Weeks is fantastic!!

For me it took more than 2 weeks for my emotions and feelings to level out, I was all over the place and my body needed more time to heal and adjust!!

Hang in there Lscotty!!