ipaidwithmylife

Hi, just wanted to thank all the people who tried to help and offer support to me, in this difficult phase in my life. I'm using the word "phase" only, because I long to believe I can build myself up again and can get better. I can finally say for certain, that I will never drink again! It's gotten way out of hand and honestly: that fun little feeling I had at the beginning, I'm not possibly able to achieve that anymore. During and after I drink, I just feel worse and angry at myself.

I've removed all the empty packages/cans from my room/aka drug-den, to make sure there are no triggers or bad memories. There's also a certain spray I used to cover up the alcohol-smell and I won't use it anymore, since I remember it as one of the albeit (minor) reasons why I first relapsed.

But anyway, just wanted to express my gratitude... Love you all, you keep me ( a little bit) sane.