Thinking about where I was a year ago
Thinking about where I was a year ago
So the Tour of California has been going on, which rang a bell as to where I was last year at this time.
My husband and I were on vacation watching the tour at night, drinking beer. I can still remember that feeling of feeling gross and disgusting the morning after. Even looking back now at that vacation, thinking about the amount I drank, makes me cringe.
I am bringing this up since so much has changed since I got completely sober almost 6 months ago and wanted to share.
I no longer have to check the recycling bin to see how much I had to drink the night before.
I no longer feel the shame and embarrassment associated with how much I drank.
I no longer have to hear my husband ask, "how are you feeling this morning" and being filled with even more shame and embarrassment.
I no longer cringe when I empty out the recycle bin and hearing those bottles clank.
I no longer have to scroll through my texts to see what I said the night before.
I no longer am caught in that cycle of when I am going to drink next, contemplating what I am going to drink next, and being caught in that entire vicious cycle.
I no longer have to worry about how alcohol is affecting my life or potentially adversely affecting my health.
I no longer worry about going out and worrying who will see me drink and what they think.
I have less stress in my life since I have more time to do different things other than drink and don't have to deal with all the stress caused from drinking.
I feel much better about myself and feel like I am living the life I should be versus being held back by alcohol.
My husband and I were on vacation watching the tour at night, drinking beer. I can still remember that feeling of feeling gross and disgusting the morning after. Even looking back now at that vacation, thinking about the amount I drank, makes me cringe.
I am bringing this up since so much has changed since I got completely sober almost 6 months ago and wanted to share.
I no longer have to check the recycling bin to see how much I had to drink the night before.
I no longer feel the shame and embarrassment associated with how much I drank.
I no longer have to hear my husband ask, "how are you feeling this morning" and being filled with even more shame and embarrassment.
I no longer cringe when I empty out the recycle bin and hearing those bottles clank.
I no longer have to scroll through my texts to see what I said the night before.
I no longer am caught in that cycle of when I am going to drink next, contemplating what I am going to drink next, and being caught in that entire vicious cycle.
I no longer have to worry about how alcohol is affecting my life or potentially adversely affecting my health.
I no longer worry about going out and worrying who will see me drink and what they think.
I have less stress in my life since I have more time to do different things other than drink and don't have to deal with all the stress caused from drinking.
I feel much better about myself and feel like I am living the life I should be versus being held back by alcohol.
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