strangeangel

I had a beer today. And 2 glasses of wine last night. I don't think I'll ever be able to do this without Antabuse. Help.

ScottFromWI

What have you tried besides Antabuse?

Dee74

What have you been doing to stay sober strangeangel?

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strangeangel

I've been writing, doing yoga, therapist. But I'll admit my effort hasn't been great. It was so much work last time. I made it one month and the last few weeks they're have been s lot of day 1s. I'm at a very "what's the point" with everything in my life. Therapist aware but I'm just tired of feeling like every day is the same repeat of the same cycle. I'm not ready to give up, and I know I won't give in. But I'm just in general feeling like I'm spinning the wheels. Tomorrow is day 1. Again.

Dee74

What about adding more to your recovery?
I know it's tiring, but so is drinking every day - at least recovery gets easier.

There's great ideas on more support and better recovery plans here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html

strangeangel

Ok thanks. I'm going to write and go to bed now. Start fresh tomorrow and take a look at those plans. Yes drinking is very tiring. I made a list in my journal of all the negative things just one drink does, even if it's only one. Am hoping that visualizing/repeating list when tempted will help.

sva777

I know for me I had to get to a point where the drink made me so sick I actually i became repulsed by it. Of course even then I still drank until I wound up in the ER. Hopefully your stronger than me and can stop before that happens.

PurpleKnight

You can do this Strangeangel!!

How about daily posting in some of the support threads here on SR, regular daily refocusing on the task at hand made all the difference for me in early Sobriety!!