This is day 1 for me.....
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Join Date: May 2015
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This is day 1 for me.....
Hello....I have been on this site for two weeks reading posts...and finally decided to join just now. I have been drinking heavy for about 15 years I lost my last husband to suicide 5 years ago next week and since then have drank about 2 -3 bottles of wine every single day.... I went to the doctor last summer and he wanted me to commit myself to a rehab center. I didn't want to. So he arranged for me to see a therapist....I did that for about a month....I did quit for 2 months...but of course started right back up. I would hide my bottles of wine in a bedroom and lie about my drinking of course. I found if I sipped apple cider vinegar it would hide my breath from my now husband. I have been trying to quit since January of this year and each day I would tell my self....this is the last day....nope! But today is....I have to quit...I am so tired of being bloated, red eyes, red puffy face and body, bowel problems, pain in the upper stomach area, cloudy head, etc...etc...etc....I am tired of waking up the next morning....of which I would feel normal....not look normal....and look around the house and would see things like the dishes washed etc.....and I don't remember doing them...things like that. Looking back and trying to remember what I use to be like before drinking....I was a health freak...loved the gym...etc...use to compete in light weight body building....I looked great and want to look and feel great again and get my life back. I am 49 years old and 5'3" I know weight 137....very very heavy for me.....I am going to do this...and this forum has inspired me so much these last two weeks....that I know I can do this......thanks for reading...wish me luck....
Trudgin
Join Date: Jul 2014
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Welcome Samdebam!
Glad you're here with us - sobriety is there for those who truly desire change, have accepted their circumstances and are ready to take action.
Quitting drinking can help one feel great on the inside and look better on the outside!
keep coming back
Glad you're here with us - sobriety is there for those who truly desire change, have accepted their circumstances and are ready to take action.
Quitting drinking can help one feel great on the inside and look better on the outside!
keep coming back
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Join Date: Mar 2015
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Welcome Sam!
I like you was a 2 bottle of wine most night drinker! I was soo tired of this never ending battle with myself! I got off that train 37 days ago and while not always peachy, I do feel a lot better!
Best part no hang overs, no hiding in my closet and lying to my kids about wether I had been drinking, no feeling sorry for myself, no suicidal thoughts.. The list goes on and on!
You can actually do this! sobriety is not something that is out there, out of reach... It's within you to want to stop and stay stopped!
We are here for you!
I like you was a 2 bottle of wine most night drinker! I was soo tired of this never ending battle with myself! I got off that train 37 days ago and while not always peachy, I do feel a lot better!
Best part no hang overs, no hiding in my closet and lying to my kids about wether I had been drinking, no feeling sorry for myself, no suicidal thoughts.. The list goes on and on!
You can actually do this! sobriety is not something that is out there, out of reach... It's within you to want to stop and stay stopped!
We are here for you!
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Join Date: Jan 2014
Posts: 8,637
Welcome....
It sure sounds like you're ready to re-discover and re-invent your life based on the person you know inside that you are!!!
Congratulations, I'm really happy for you!!
It's scary and it can be really hard at first, but it really is a far better life - this sober life.
Sounds to me like you've got some really positive images you could draw upon for inspiration. Being healthy and active and fit are fantastic images to focus on in recovery.
It'll take action, and you'll need to support yourself with a plan and with community - but you can do this!!
#soberliferocks
It sure sounds like you're ready to re-discover and re-invent your life based on the person you know inside that you are!!!
Congratulations, I'm really happy for you!!
It's scary and it can be really hard at first, but it really is a far better life - this sober life.
Sounds to me like you've got some really positive images you could draw upon for inspiration. Being healthy and active and fit are fantastic images to focus on in recovery.
It'll take action, and you'll need to support yourself with a plan and with community - but you can do this!!
#soberliferocks
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Hey samdebam, I was thinking of nominating you for cool name of the month. But you need at least ten posts I think.
I'm sorry to hear of the hardships you have endured and your struggle with the bottle. I'd like to wish you luck but I won't. I do wish you success though. Depending on luck to get through this hasn't worked for anyone as far as I know. It's going to take some effort on your part. The first thing you must do is to make the decision to quit. And I don't mean just saying it. In order to succeed you have to want to stop more than you want to drink.
Admitting and accepting that we have a problem that can only be fixed by quitting drinking is the biggest hurdle for many.
But once you embrace that idea and believe it, staying sober becomes a mere formality.
You have to want it. And if you want it bad enough you will come out on top. Luck has nothing to do with it.
And sooner than you know it, you'll be back to your training weight.
I'm sorry to hear of the hardships you have endured and your struggle with the bottle. I'd like to wish you luck but I won't. I do wish you success though. Depending on luck to get through this hasn't worked for anyone as far as I know. It's going to take some effort on your part. The first thing you must do is to make the decision to quit. And I don't mean just saying it. In order to succeed you have to want to stop more than you want to drink.
Admitting and accepting that we have a problem that can only be fixed by quitting drinking is the biggest hurdle for many.
But once you embrace that idea and believe it, staying sober becomes a mere formality.
You have to want it. And if you want it bad enough you will come out on top. Luck has nothing to do with it.
And sooner than you know it, you'll be back to your training weight.
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Join Date: May 2015
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Going on Day 2
Wow....I was so excited to read all your wonderful and encouraging post. I made Day 1 with a breeze.....lol....of course I thought about it....but I have it in my mind and I am excited and determined to over come this stupid and destructive addiction. I will continue to post my progress as I think I need to for the healing process... and to continue to read your post and others....it is so encouraging and to know that I am not alone.
So....yesterday this is what I focused on:
I wrote out my list of goals...short and long term.
How I want to feel and look.
I wrote down all the things about alcohol I hated, not just the physical effects but life in general and how it not only effected me but those I love.
I posted pictures around the house of myself before I started drinking when I was in shape and healthy as my incentive.
I goggled vitamins for recovering alcoholics and went and bought those.
I am dedicated to eating healthy again...5-6 small meals every day.
Ok....I guess that is enough for now.....I know I hate the detox part as I have been thru this before...and I know it will pass.....I just remind myself.....baby steps...baby steps......
Thank you all again for your encouraging support.....
So....yesterday this is what I focused on:
I wrote out my list of goals...short and long term.
How I want to feel and look.
I wrote down all the things about alcohol I hated, not just the physical effects but life in general and how it not only effected me but those I love.
I posted pictures around the house of myself before I started drinking when I was in shape and healthy as my incentive.
I goggled vitamins for recovering alcoholics and went and bought those.
I am dedicated to eating healthy again...5-6 small meals every day.
Ok....I guess that is enough for now.....I know I hate the detox part as I have been thru this before...and I know it will pass.....I just remind myself.....baby steps...baby steps......
Thank you all again for your encouraging support.....
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