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Old 05-10-2015, 04:21 AM
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when does it stop

Hi all I am an alcoholic and I have come to accept it alcohol has turned my perfect life into a mess I have been drinking now for about 15 years but have been a real alcoholic for about 4 years at the moment I am drinking and have been drinkin everyday for the past 3 months I just can control my self felling sick every day has become normal for me I am always worried if I reek of alcohol at work I sometimes drink before work cause I cant handle the withdrawal I have lost almost everything including my fiance and baby which is 1 of the reasons I drink on a daily basis cause am all alone at home most of my furniture has been pawned to support my habit I hardly eat no food in the house all my money goes to the bottle everybody at work knows I am a drunk which Is so embarasing my manager never knows if I am coming on monday cause the weekend for me is a binge session the stress is overwhelming its like living in hell the funny part is that I know that alcohol is not for me yet I still abuse it like theres no tomorrow if I ddnt have a child I would quit my job an just drink cos its the only thing that keeps me happy an sane at the moment Iam broke I dnt know how I am goin to get to work or what iam going to eat until month end I just hate life right now I just thank god that I am strong enogh not to even think of suicide WHAT DO I DO TO GET OUT OF THIS PLACE?
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Old 05-10-2015, 04:24 AM
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All I can say is read my thread called 'It begins..'.
8 days ago I was in the same place, now I am not.
You CAN stop.
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Old 05-10-2015, 04:27 AM
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Hi and welcome mraloneza

It's important not to panic - this place is full of people who've gotten out of the vicious circle of drinking and on to happy and full sober lives.

It really starts with a day one, and a determination not to drink - just for today

If you're worried about withdrawal I think it makes sense to see your Dr straight off - be safe.

You'll find a lot of support advice and understanding here.

It's a scary step getting sober but you are not alone

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Old 05-10-2015, 04:28 AM
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Welcome! You have to put the bottle down, first and foremost. Can you see your doctor for help? I used to think I was hopeless too, but now I've got over five years sober. It is possible to live a good sober life.
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Old 05-10-2015, 04:35 AM
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Hi and welcome.
You probably won’t like some needed advice you get so I’ll start by strongly suggesting going to a detox/rehab and seeking medical help because you’re at a dangerous place.
Stay as much on this site and read a lot of posts to see and understand what you are facing.

I needed the help of the people in AA which has helped millions to recover from this disease called alcoholism which is powerful, cunning, baffling and very progressive.

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Old 05-10-2015, 04:46 AM
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cant afford

I would realy love to go to rehab I was there 10 years ago for haroin addiction and it worked for me unfortunately I cnt afford rehab right now and I dont have medical insurance and I deffinetly wont afford prescription meds I dnt reside in the U.S the health system in my country is not so great theres barrely any free support for addicts so that route for me is closed :-(
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Old 05-10-2015, 05:03 AM
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It doesn't cost you anything to think about a recovery plan, or thinking about joining things like AA or some other recovery group.


http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html

If there's no meeting groups where you are, or none in english, there's online meetings for all kinds of methods.

I think seeing a Dr is a good idea if you're worried about withdrawal. Don;t take good health for granted.

If you're not sure where to go, maybe contact the relevant embassy depending on your nationality.


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Old 05-10-2015, 05:16 AM
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Originally Posted by mraloneza View Post
Hi all I am an alcoholic and I have come to accept it alcohol has turned my perfect life into a mess I have been drinking now for about 15 years but have been a real alcoholic for about 4 years at the moment I am drinking and have been drinkin everyday for the past 3 months I just can control my self felling sick every day has become normal for me I am always worried if I reek of alcohol at work I sometimes drink before work cause I cant handle the withdrawa I have lost almost everything including my fiance and baby which is 1 of the reasons I drink on a daily basis cause am all alone at home most of my furniture has been pawned to support my habit I hardly eat no food in the house all my money goes to the bottle everybody at work knows I am a drunk which Is so embarasing my manager never knows if I am coming on monday cause the weekend for me is a binge session the stress is overwhelming its like living in hell the funny part is that I know that alcohol is not for me yet I still abuse it like theres no tomorrow if I ddnt have a child I would quit my job an just drink cos its the only thing that keeps me happy an sane at the moment Iam broke I dnt know how I am goin to get to work or what iam going to eat until month end I just hate life right now...
Alcohol: The problem that masquerades as the solution.

See a doctor and detox. Break the cycle.
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