So this guy walks into a liquor store...
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So this guy walks into a liquor store...
...and that guy was me, about 2 hours ago. I was ready to give in and drink tonight. Luckily, what was to be a quick in-and-out situation was slowed because they didn't have my favorite beer. Couldn't give up my hard won sobriety for just any old beer, so I had to look around and consider my options. Couldn't decide.
So I moved on to the vodka section. There it was, my brand. I'll just buy a 750ml, that should do the trick. But I probably won't be able to finish the whole thing, and I'll have a little bit left but not enough to do it again tomorrow. Okay, I'll get the 1.5L...but then there'll be too much leftover. Maybe I could get someone to cover my shift on Thursday so I could finish it off?
Then I realized that I wasn't just planning to drink tonight, I planned to drink until I was done drinking. The fear and guilt set in. What the hell are you doing? Why are you here? What are you going to do, just sit at home and get drunk? Shut up! It's just one more time! I'm doing great, one night of drinking won't hurt anything! Then why are you eyeing that HUGE bottle of vodka? You know you want it so there will be enough left over to do it again, don't you? Yeah, so! Nobody's business buy my own!
And so it went for about 5 long minutes or so.
I didn't buy any booze. I did go eat 2 double cheeseburgers from Mcdonald's and washed them down with a bunch of doughnuts. Needless to say I feel pretty disgusting now.
Not sure what the point of this post is, except to share my battle with the only people in my life who will understand it. Maybe it's that we always have a choice, even when drinking seems like a foregone conclusion. I'd already decided that I was going to drink today, and yet here I am writing this, sober (and bloated).
Anyway, that's my day. Hope you're all having a more peaceful day.
So I moved on to the vodka section. There it was, my brand. I'll just buy a 750ml, that should do the trick. But I probably won't be able to finish the whole thing, and I'll have a little bit left but not enough to do it again tomorrow. Okay, I'll get the 1.5L...but then there'll be too much leftover. Maybe I could get someone to cover my shift on Thursday so I could finish it off?
Then I realized that I wasn't just planning to drink tonight, I planned to drink until I was done drinking. The fear and guilt set in. What the hell are you doing? Why are you here? What are you going to do, just sit at home and get drunk? Shut up! It's just one more time! I'm doing great, one night of drinking won't hurt anything! Then why are you eyeing that HUGE bottle of vodka? You know you want it so there will be enough left over to do it again, don't you? Yeah, so! Nobody's business buy my own!
And so it went for about 5 long minutes or so.
I didn't buy any booze. I did go eat 2 double cheeseburgers from Mcdonald's and washed them down with a bunch of doughnuts. Needless to say I feel pretty disgusting now.
Not sure what the point of this post is, except to share my battle with the only people in my life who will understand it. Maybe it's that we always have a choice, even when drinking seems like a foregone conclusion. I'd already decided that I was going to drink today, and yet here I am writing this, sober (and bloated).
Anyway, that's my day. Hope you're all having a more peaceful day.
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Glad you made it through! It's weird having an inner monologue like that, but you're definitely not alone!
I just ate a whole bag of goldfish crackers while I'm cooking myself cabonara pasta, if that makes you feel any better
I just ate a whole bag of goldfish crackers while I'm cooking myself cabonara pasta, if that makes you feel any better
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Uufffff!!! Close call and great job not succumbing.
Next time you feel this urge come here and post. That has always helped me. You did the right thing coming here and posting. I find that posting gives me perspective.
Remember: we are here! You are not alone!!!
Next time you feel this urge come here and post. That has always helped me. You did the right thing coming here and posting. I find that posting gives me perspective.
Remember: we are here! You are not alone!!!
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I'm just befuddled. I kind of thought that by now it would be getting easier, not harder. I had it in my mind that after 3 months or so I'd be in the clear, but nope! Still gotta fight it.
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Originally Posted by SDH73 
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I didn't buy any booze. I did go eat 2 double cheeseburgers from Mcdonald's and washed them down with a bunch of doughnuts. Needless to say I feel pretty disgusting now.
I didn't buy any booze. I did go eat 2 double cheeseburgers from Mcdonald's and washed them down with a bunch of doughnuts. Needless to say I feel pretty disgusting now.
Next time, go through all of that thinking BEFORE you go into the liquor store. If you keep standing on the edge of the high dive on your tippy toes, eventually you are going to jump. Or just slip and fall. Either way it's nobody's fault but your own. Stay the heck away.
edit: 3 months? I was still having a tough time getting through the days up to 6 months.
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Good to hear you rose above the temptation SDH. I still had those occurrences at 3 months, but they happened less & less. This 30-year drinker rarely even thinks of it these days. Hard to believe my life once revolved around it.
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Glad to hear that you powered through that, SDH. Think of the liquor store as the 'devil's keeper' and stay away!!!!
I was no where near strong at 3 months; there were places to be avoided and the liquor store was at the top of the list.
I was no where near strong at 3 months; there were places to be avoided and the liquor store was at the top of the list.
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I relapsed at 3 months and never really stopped. My story started similar to yours but ended different, it rarely ends up just being one night.
So I would certainly count this as a win. You were in the "belly of the beast" as they say, being in a liquor store, and you still walked out empty handed.
So I would certainly count this as a win. You were in the "belly of the beast" as they say, being in a liquor store, and you still walked out empty handed.
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