Dee74

I'm sorry lesly but I really hope you make this your turning point

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lesly

I'm a complete and total mess. My mind has really been kicking my butt. I can't do this anymore. I'm done.

lesly

I get that life gives you a curve ball once and again.... But I really don't need them all at once.

Dee74

It gets better from here lesly - I promise

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lesly

A very long time friend, died from a herion over dose. This sucks, sorry, but it does. It can't get any worse.

lesly

You think your doing the right thing, he was helpn with the DUI, etc, and I was so focused on me and once again being selfish, and he OD....his wife called the next day. Bull#$7&

Dee74

I'm sorry about your friend lesly.
are you blaming yourself? I don't think that's healthy.

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CeeFarro

I'm sorry to hear about your friend Lesly. That is horrible. I do understand..I have been through a similar situation losing someone that I loved and drinking over it just made it 50 times worse..What I thought would be a few drinks was 3 long years of drinking, 2 DUIs, jail, disconnect with my family...you name it. Stick around here and stay sober. It is truly the easier softer way. You will get through this and things will get better as long as you don't drink..Trust me.

lesly

Could I have done more, you bet. Is it my fault he overdosed? No and yes, trying to help someone get sober is taxing, and I didn't know he was still fighting as hard as he was, he seemed to be in compete control. I should have seen it, I've know him since I was 12. So 33 years, I've known this wonderful man, and now he's gone.

Dee74

I've lost friends too.
In a way I dedicate my recovery to them - it helps make sense out of the senseless, y'know?

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CeeFarro

I get it..I do. Do you have any safe friends you can hang out with and grieve? I hope you're not sitting alone trying to deal with it by yourself. That can be a very dark place.

lesly

Sitting here listening to Tuesdays gone with the wind. Lol he used to sing this at the top of his lungs.

Dee74

Its a great song lesly

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lesly

I Miss my friend. I will deal with his passing, will I get over it, eventually. Thank you dee and cee. But this is something I need to get through. And I will in time, really, I'm never getting over this.

lesly

Hey, I'm sorry that I lost my mind, i really have a lot to figure out. May not be around, thinking about going I to rehab. I can't do this alone, SR is great but I think I need more at this point. TT y'all later.

Delilah1

Welcome to both of you!!

lesly

The will to live, outlives the will to die.

Calitano

Very sorry for your loss lesly.

Dee74

I think rehab is a great idea - follow it up lesly

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saoutchik

How are you doing Laska23?