| Thatdeliveryguy | 04-24-2015 07:19 PM |
Today I am sober and it was an awesome day
You know, Friday night were always my night to drink. Wasted always, I would get a few 12 packs and drink myself to oblivion.
Can't lie, I drank just 8 short days ago, but I am learning that I don't need it.
Contemplating what could be tonight, I have an interview next week, I am doing so much better that the state is looking at letting me and my wife ( she is sober months now) over night visits with our daughter. So much upside, so much to live for, so much opportunity. I don't want to ever ask myself, why didn't you do what you could of done Jeremy?
I used to think of myself as a drunk crazy guy, but now I am learning that I am not a drunk, I am a man with a habit, a habit I can control. As for being crazy, for those that don't know I am schizophrenic I hear voices without medication, I am taking my medication and the voices are slowly fading. Its a murmur now, not completely gone, but nonetheless I am not listening anymore.
Now its time to stay sober, and keep doing what I am doing, this hasn't been a perfect journey, I am stubborn to the max....I still have reservations and problems, but you know looking forward and not back. Have a good one folks Jeremy | 