I feel so blah
 

I'm sober several months now. I feel blah most of the time. I go to work, come home, go to a meeting x number of nights a week, babysit the grandkids, go out to dinner, grocery shop... all the "normal" thinks in life. I have nothing to complain about about except minor health issues and everything to be grateful for. Family, work, all my "stuff" etc. etc. I feel ashamed that I feel this way. I don't think it's depression. I just don't have the passion I used to have (long before drinking and even while drinking). I'm not saying life is boring. But nothing excites me. I'm sort of just existing. Functioning sober.

Will it come back? Am I expecting too much too soon?

I think it's common for us as addicts to hope or long for that "euphoric" feeling we initially got from alcohol or other drugs. There are certainly "highs" you can attain naturally - like excersice induced ones, or high moments in our lives or the lives of those around us. But quite frankly, there is always going to be a lot of "mundane" tasks and activities that we need to accomplish simply to survive and provide for our families. Life ain't easy ;-)

Having said that, many find that there are spiritual and other ways to achieve what we seek - meditation, yoga, religion, counseling, reading, etc. Many of these thigns can help center us and allow us to enjoy everything else more too.

I hear ya... am probably just still getting used to the quietness of my new existence which is better than the alternative. Maybe I need to just let things "be" and some of the stuff I used to love to do will gradually come back to me... quit over thinking it.

To me life is boring and that's why I started drinking as an escape I guess you can say . I do the same thing every day I work go home clean up play with my son grocery shopping and all the normal things . But I just want to escape go somewhere far get away from the same city idk . But I'll take this over drinking sitting there watching TV playing video games or just being drunk and can't even stand now that's boring . I think things will pick up i think we just need to find a new hobby what ever that may be I don't know yet I still don't remember what I used to like to do before I started drinking .

Looking back with hindsight and the clarity of four-plus years without a drink...I was blah most of the time I was drinking. But if I was drunk, I could mask the blahness.

Have you been to a doctor to talk about it. After I was sober a year, I had blood test done and was low in Vitamin D. A month of supplements, I was surprised how much better I felt.

I think Scott is absolutely right. I had to learn to find joy in the small things in my life. I embrace the peace in my life. :) It's possible that a Gratitude Journal might help you.

Thanks for the great advice. I will mention it to my doctor when I go in a few weeks.

I also need to "embrace the peace." :)

Hang in there ElleDee!! :)

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