My first public statement to stop
 

I've decided to give up drinking. I keep thinking I can control how much I drink but it always gets out of hand. I end up binge drinking on my own at the weekends. It makes me act really stupid and crazy. I've never had problems with addiction but have a re-occurring problem where I binge drink and feel incredible shame afterwards then end up depressed. When I drink so much it just makes me look like an incredible idiot. I'm not in control of what I'm doing, it's like a form of insanity. I suffer five days of depression afterwards. After that the depression clears but I still have to go into work and struggle through the days. I put on a brave face but it's hell inside. I feel a kind of split life where my life is pretty good and I have lot of goods things in my life, but when I binge drink and end up depressed I just feel like such a low life loser, like I don't deserve to live. So this is the first ever public statement I've made as an intent to stop. I need to stop drinking alone at the weekends. I want to stop drinking completely. It's obviously a problem, I can't deny it anymore. Sometimes I can be ***** when I'm drunk. Mostly I'm just an idiot when I'm drunk. People probably just think I'm a idiot when they meet me when I'm that drunk. It's not the impression I want to create of myself anymore. I seem to have a problem with being really stupid and foolish with money when I'm drunk as well. I want to have a normal life like normal people from now on.

Congrats, StevenH! Welcome to SR. It's good to have you with us.

Welcome Steve :)

sounds like you're making a great decision :)

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Getting sober was the best decision I ever made. You can do it. You will find lots of support here.

Great decision & welcome.

Welcome!

Do you have a plan to stay stopped? It might help to plan your weekend ahead of time if that's when you usually do the majority of drinking. I find I have to get out the house. I can't let myself sit around even if I'm tired, otherwise the craving is more likely to get a hold.

I think it's a great decision for your health to stop :-)

Welcome to SR Steven. Stick around, and post lots. You'll find your story is fairly common with people around these parts.

Congratulation on a great decision and best of luck

Welcome.

Congratulations.

This step is a step into an unknown. That takes courage and I know from experience how scary it can be to face oneself in that way.

Well done.....

Beyond this step you have taken lies a challenging path, but one more deeply-rewarding and worthy than you can possibly imagine right now.

Keep on this path and you'll discover what life can truly be.

Welcome Steven

Glad you're here, welcome!
You may have reached the end of the beginning!

Welcome to the Forum Steve from a fellow guy from N.Ireland!! :wave: