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Old 04-20-2015, 05:11 AM
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None for me today

This is a 24hr promise. No booze today.

After losing my family, my job, and drinking myself into deeper anxiety, I'm done.

I've stepped down from more than a gallon of vodka a week to about half a pint a day with days off here and there.

None for me today. It's time to take the last step and stop putting this evil into my body.

I'M IN CONTROL.
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Old 04-20-2015, 05:16 AM
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Welcome! Congrats on taking control of your life away from that poison today. Today it can start and then work on one day at a time. There is a lot of support here!
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Old 04-20-2015, 05:19 AM
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Hang around here, Incontrol. You'll have plenty of company to get you thru the first 24 hours.
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Old 04-20-2015, 05:20 AM
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Congratulations on making this decision!

Definitely have a look around. I find this place invaluable and there's a lot of wise words :-)
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Well done stick at it
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Old 04-20-2015, 05:29 AM
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Great to see you here. I am also a newbie! Congratulations on seeing that alcohol is a destructive force and that by eliminating it we can purge our lives of this demon. This is my first week of being a non-drinker myself, so we are in this together. This group is amazing. You have come to the right place!
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excellent start, very best wishes

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Old 04-20-2015, 05:42 AM
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Old 04-20-2015, 05:56 AM
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Good perspective; keep it up, but do it One Day At A TIme; that makes it so much better. If you feel you may want to drink, wait until tomorrow, then do it again...

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Old 04-20-2015, 06:59 AM
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Thank you all for responses and wishes.

Here's some of my more immediate plans towards recovery:
1. 24hr promise - done
2. Post / read when thinking about booze. Like now.
3. Set appointment for counselor today.
4. Talk to my GF tonight. I've talked to her about my past struggles and witnessed me become addicted to and quit phenibut (GABA antagonist). She doesn't know I've been hiding bottles in the car and struggling to not drink.

Out for now! See ya'll soon
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Old 04-20-2015, 07:02 AM
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Sounds like a good start Incontrol. Honesty ( both with ourselves and others ) is one of the most important things in sobriety, glad to see you are taking steps to do just that.
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ditto well done Incontrol15
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Old 04-20-2015, 07:14 PM
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Off to bed in a few so I'm celebrating my 24hrs early and making a NEW 24hr promise.

First half of the day was hard. I think in part to the promise I made not to drink. As the day progressed, my comfort in my decision settled.

Couple lessons today:
- Eat when hungry. Might not feel up to it, but eat.
- Water rules.
- Chocolate helped mid day
- Every time I thought about how much this blew, I made the effort, when I could, to close my eyes and acknowledge what I'm feeling and how I put myself there. Just for a minute. Then opened my eyes and looked up and around. Took a deep breath and was thankful for the day.
- Post / Read helps but also keeps me centered in on my problem. What helps the most is seeing posts and responses from people who have made it.

Good night all.
Glad I'm going to bed sober. A day not drinking means a day with more energy and focus.

I AM IN CONTROL
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Old 04-21-2015, 07:15 AM
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None for me today.

Talked to my GF last night. She's very supportive.

I have an assessment scheduled for Friday with a counselor. Looking forward to that.

I was able to focus on tasks this morning rather than being completely absorbed about drinking. Anxiety is down. Slept pretty good with help from OTC sleep aid.

Sun is shining and I'm thankful for a beautiful day.

Today, I'M IN CONTROL!
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Old 04-21-2015, 07:30 AM
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Congrats InControl, keep it up, and keep us informed on how you're doing.
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Old 04-22-2015, 07:15 AM
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Woke up today with doom and gloom.
Ran to April and promised no booze for me today and promised a 30min workout at the gym even though I had zero desire.

Well...just came back from the gym!! So bam! Check done. Still feeling down, not as bad. About to eat, that'll help too. Shower, meditate, and I should be good to go.

At least I am not constantly thinking about alcohol. I've settled in my mind that although booze will put me at ease, it would only be temporary, and followed by stronger anxiety.

It's clear to me, and relieving to know, that there's other ways to deal with the issues. Maybe not as immediate in effect, but certainly more sustainable.

I know it's true. Cause today, I'M IN CONTROL!
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