None for me today
This is a note to my AV.
I just want you to know, I hear you. Loud and clear. I hear you telling me just one drink and I'll feel better. Honestly, it's hard to ignore.
The issue is, that approach is short lived, and afterwards I have to deal with even MORE anxiety and depression. I see it as having two choices: drink all the time, or don't drink at all.
I've tried the first option already. Now, if I were on a secluded island, maybe that would be the way to go. But that's not the case. There's people who love me that I end up lying to and hurting, there's a job I need keep, and there's a life I need to experience. Not hide from. This is my only chance at it. I've gotta make the most of it, not destroy it.
The second option is wiser. Sure, I'll have to out up with your poor attitude, but I know eventually you'll see the light. Trust me. This will work. I know because I've lived it. The best parts of my life weren't spent chasing a buzz. The worst parts of my life involved drugs and alcohol.
I'm more educated and experienced than you are. So you can just take a break and see what happens. Ok? It's hard dealing with a child like attitude. I get where you are coming from. I was a child too once.
There's no drinking for today. That's all I'm saying for now. I've got too many things I need my mind to stay focused on. You have to admit...you owe me that. Go ahead and keep on pushing if that's what you want. It'll only confirm my opinion of your immaturity.
Suck it. Cause today, I'M IN CONTROL. Not you.
I just want you to know, I hear you. Loud and clear. I hear you telling me just one drink and I'll feel better. Honestly, it's hard to ignore.
The issue is, that approach is short lived, and afterwards I have to deal with even MORE anxiety and depression. I see it as having two choices: drink all the time, or don't drink at all.
I've tried the first option already. Now, if I were on a secluded island, maybe that would be the way to go. But that's not the case. There's people who love me that I end up lying to and hurting, there's a job I need keep, and there's a life I need to experience. Not hide from. This is my only chance at it. I've gotta make the most of it, not destroy it.
The second option is wiser. Sure, I'll have to out up with your poor attitude, but I know eventually you'll see the light. Trust me. This will work. I know because I've lived it. The best parts of my life weren't spent chasing a buzz. The worst parts of my life involved drugs and alcohol.
I'm more educated and experienced than you are. So you can just take a break and see what happens. Ok? It's hard dealing with a child like attitude. I get where you are coming from. I was a child too once.
There's no drinking for today. That's all I'm saying for now. I've got too many things I need my mind to stay focused on. You have to admit...you owe me that. Go ahead and keep on pushing if that's what you want. It'll only confirm my opinion of your immaturity.
Suck it. Cause today, I'M IN CONTROL. Not you.
Today is 90 days for me!!
Never thought I'd make it this far. Honestly....when I posted day 1 on 4/20, I had no real intention of abstaining this long.
The longer I'm sober, the more I see that alcohol does not have a place in my life.
I am very grateful for SR. Thank you all. I never would have made it if it weren't for this forum. I am especially thankful to be part of an awesome group in April 2015. I lucked out on that front. THANKS TO ALL MY ROOMMATES IN APRIL FOR THE CONTINUOS SUPPORT!!!
And thanks to those who popped into April regularly early on to help us along...Dee, and Soberwolf especially. Thank you.
To those who are considering dropping the bottle.....you can do it too! Feel free to PM me.
90 days ago I was an all day drunk. Starting with vodka in my morning coffee, continuing with a bottle of vodka in my car and mixing drinks as I tried door to door sales, and finishing with more drinks when I got home.
If I can, you can.
I am so thankful I'm no longer sick and tired. I am more thankful I am no longer in danger of killing people, getting arrested, doing irreversible damage to my body. I am thankful I am no longer lying to everyone around me. I am no longer hiding bottles.
If I can, you can.
Never thought I'd make it this far. Honestly....when I posted day 1 on 4/20, I had no real intention of abstaining this long.
The longer I'm sober, the more I see that alcohol does not have a place in my life.
I am very grateful for SR. Thank you all. I never would have made it if it weren't for this forum. I am especially thankful to be part of an awesome group in April 2015. I lucked out on that front. THANKS TO ALL MY ROOMMATES IN APRIL FOR THE CONTINUOS SUPPORT!!!
And thanks to those who popped into April regularly early on to help us along...Dee, and Soberwolf especially. Thank you.
To those who are considering dropping the bottle.....you can do it too! Feel free to PM me.
90 days ago I was an all day drunk. Starting with vodka in my morning coffee, continuing with a bottle of vodka in my car and mixing drinks as I tried door to door sales, and finishing with more drinks when I got home.
If I can, you can.
I am so thankful I'm no longer sick and tired. I am more thankful I am no longer in danger of killing people, getting arrested, doing irreversible damage to my body. I am thankful I am no longer lying to everyone around me. I am no longer hiding bottles.
If I can, you can.
That's fantastic, InControl! I'm glad to you got three months under your belt. I won't say it's all easy after that but those first few months are the toughest! Congrats- you should be proud!
You really hit it on the head- we can drink completely with every fibre of our being or not at all. I too have had that fantasy of winning the lottery and just sitting in my mansion and drinking! But now after almost three years sober I've been given the gift of life that I didn't realize was possible.
Good going, InControl! Great job.
You really hit it on the head- we can drink completely with every fibre of our being or not at all. I too have had that fantasy of winning the lottery and just sitting in my mansion and drinking! But now after almost three years sober I've been given the gift of life that I didn't realize was possible.
Good going, InControl! Great job.
Thank you all for the replies! They mean a lot.
Yes....I'm not out of the woods yet. Actually, I wonder if Ever will be? But at this point, if I drink, it's because I chose to.
I'n finding the hardest part now is continuing to apply the same amount of effort into my sobriety. I started getting lazy with many things. Ivan now back in track and have become "reborn" you might say.
Life without alcohol can be difficult if it's same life I lived with alcohol. What I'm trying to say is, it's more than just not drinking.
Today, I'm not drinking. And today, I am taking more steps forward with my life. Day by day, I am climbing out of this huge hole I dug for myself over the last few years.
Thanks again for the motivation to keep climbing!
Yes....I'm not out of the woods yet. Actually, I wonder if Ever will be? But at this point, if I drink, it's because I chose to.
I'n finding the hardest part now is continuing to apply the same amount of effort into my sobriety. I started getting lazy with many things. Ivan now back in track and have become "reborn" you might say.
Life without alcohol can be difficult if it's same life I lived with alcohol. What I'm trying to say is, it's more than just not drinking.
Today, I'm not drinking. And today, I am taking more steps forward with my life. Day by day, I am climbing out of this huge hole I dug for myself over the last few years.
Thanks again for the motivation to keep climbing!
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