TennantSmith

My AV is loud today. The thoughts of drinking have been almost constant. I haven't drank. I'm not going to, but as night comes, its becoming quite the mental battle.

I've been reading a lot of posts here today. It's helping. I know once I get through tonight, I'll be okay tomorrow.

Just wanted to share. There's no point in being alone with this.

SoberLeigh

Glad that you posted, TS. Hang tight.

Waking up sober and hangover-free tomorrow will be especially sweet.

TennantSmith

Yes, it will because I am going on a good run. No matter what the song says, my beer gut is not sexy and I am not rocking it. Lol

Kevin78

Strangely, this is how I feel tonight. Almost 8 weeks since my last drink, I keep having my AV niggle on at me. I am out working in the taxi, ANd decided to pop home for a coffee. I hope this passes.

Hendrix

Double post

Hendrix

Good on you for posting - I've found doing just that has helped several times when Ive been in exactly the position you're in now. And yes, come the next morning I felt stronger and so pleased with myself - have a peaceful evening mate 😊

TennantSmith

It is nuts really. This time I stopped and recognized the sadness that always comes when I know I will probably drink. This time, I stopped, paid attention to the sadness and recognized it for what it is: My soul saying stop.

And here I am.

And I am really struggling right now

SoberLeigh

Our souls send us the best of messages . . . .

Straightshoot

My Mom, rest her soul would say listen to your heart. Keep the faith in yourself.

Dee74

I'm glad you're being self aware and getting through this

D

least

Be strong! Hang on to your sobriety. You can get thru this and come out stronger on the other end.

mecanix

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

Always worth a good read of Dees' thread and posting before anything happens is the right thing to do , i recon

It took a while for the behaviour change to become normal for me , the cravings although intensity was the same got less frequent the further I got into trying to make my sober life as good as i could .
I was lucky and they seemed to stop after about a year , keep on , don't feed the beast .

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TennantSmith

Thanks everyone.
The urge is crazy strong. I don't know if it's because I'm allowing myself to think about it. I just know it's not letting up.

Ugh

mecanix

just get through , it will be a new day tomorrow and you'll feel different in the morning

TennantSmith

Thanks. I quit smoking about 4 months ago. I bought a pack tonight and smoking like I never quit.

This is stupid.

doggonecarl

It persistent because in the past, recent past, it's worked. You've caved and drank. Like a baby who cries because it knows it's going to get picked up, your AV is going to test your limits.

You want your AV to quiet down? Stay sober. Because a relapse is just picking up the crying addiction baby.

Bmac

Call someone and talk if need be, or post as much as needed here. Either way, it beats how tomorrow morning will feel if you cave in.

2muchpain

Thanks for sharing. I'm going through the same thing. Just think of what you will be going through when you decide to quit again. Not worth it. John

Della1968

Ride it out. You are doing the right thing posting. Each time it gets a little easier. I am having a rough day myself but I know I will feel better tomorrow. I don't want to let myself or any of my loved ones down and I know you don't either.

Aiko

TennantSmith
You can handle it... go for a run if you can, have a long shower, and go to bed,...
Read a book, do sudokus, ....

Tomorrow is a brand new day with brand new opportunities!!!

You are a bright girl and you know it!
You want a future not drag this on and on....

Hope you ride the wave and feel better soon!
Big Hug with big Arms to make you feel better XO