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Originally Posted by ZaBoozer 
I hope you're starting to feel a bit better now mate?
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Originally Posted by FrankLapidas
Not so good today. Just plain sad. But I knew this would be an emotional roller coaster, so I'll just ride it out.
Cheers, ZAB
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Day 5
Thank you Thomas, Wolf, Boozer, Dee, Jane, Angel, Shoot, Hevyn, Sugar, INgal and all for your supportive comments yesterday. And I see Time here as I write this.
When I said yesterday that I was sad, it was sad but true. That also illustrated a bit of a struggle I'm having regarding my relationship with SR. I see that most threads like this one begin with the person telling their "story". I haven't told mine, probably never will. I'm not a very open person. And it's difficult for me to admit to something as minor as being sad. That sounded to me like whining. I hate to whine. And in this circular self-evaluation, here I am whining about my whining. Go figure.
I recoil at the idea of seeking sympathy, so I'm going to attempt to make positive posts.
Toward that goal: Today is better. Thanks to reading all the threads I know the roller coaster ahead. I'm strapped in and ready to ride.
When I said yesterday that I was sad, it was sad but true. That also illustrated a bit of a struggle I'm having regarding my relationship with SR. I see that most threads like this one begin with the person telling their "story". I haven't told mine, probably never will. I'm not a very open person. And it's difficult for me to admit to something as minor as being sad. That sounded to me like whining. I hate to whine. And in this circular self-evaluation, here I am whining about my whining. Go figure.
I recoil at the idea of seeking sympathy, so I'm going to attempt to make positive posts.
Toward that goal: Today is better. Thanks to reading all the threads I know the roller coaster ahead. I'm strapped in and ready to ride.
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Originally Posted by FrankLapidas
Thank you Thomas, Wolf, Boozer, Dee, Jane, Angel, Shoot, Hevyn, Sugar, INgal and all for your supportive comments yesterday. And I see Time here as I write this.
When I said yesterday that I was sad, it was sad but true. That also illustrated a bit of a struggle I'm having regarding my relationship with SR. I see that most threads like this one begin with the person telling their "story". I haven't told mine, probably never will. I'm not a very open person. And it's difficult for me to admit to something as minor as being sad. That sounded to me like whining. I hate to whine. And in this circular self-evaluation, here I am whining about my whining. Go figure.
I recoil at the idea of seeking sympathy, so I'm going to attempt to make positive posts.
Toward that goal: Today is better. Thanks to reading all the threads I know the roller coaster ahead. I'm strapped in and ready to ride.
When I said yesterday that I was sad, it was sad but true. That also illustrated a bit of a struggle I'm having regarding my relationship with SR. I see that most threads like this one begin with the person telling their "story". I haven't told mine, probably never will. I'm not a very open person. And it's difficult for me to admit to something as minor as being sad. That sounded to me like whining. I hate to whine. And in this circular self-evaluation, here I am whining about my whining. Go figure.
I recoil at the idea of seeking sympathy, so I'm going to attempt to make positive posts.
Toward that goal: Today is better. Thanks to reading all the threads I know the roller coaster ahead. I'm strapped in and ready to ride.
I take it that I can congratulate you on day five - well done and hang in there. Keep visiting us here at SR.
Cheers
ZAB
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Day 5 - very happy for you Frank. As Dee said, you never have to feel obligated to share - but you are among friends here. In the early days of getting sober it helped me to feel less anxious when I vented a bit, but we want you to do whatever's comfortable.
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You are not alone at all! I get sad really sad and I am very private about most of my issues but I still get a lot out of this forum everyday. Sometimes even if it is only to get outside my own head.
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Share as little or as much as you want here, Frank. The important thing is to be here and to have faith in yourself.
Five days is an accomplishment. You've made the leap from wanting to change to making that change. That matters a lot. You may not realize it at the moment, but each day makes you a little stronger. You're the same person you were six days ago and you won't be six days from now, either. You're growing.
You can do this, Frank.
Five days is an accomplishment. You've made the leap from wanting to change to making that change. That matters a lot. You may not realize it at the moment, but each day makes you a little stronger. You're the same person you were six days ago and you won't be six days from now, either. You're growing.
You can do this, Frank.
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In regards to sharing and feeling like it's a plea for sympathy. I so understand that. I have always tried to shoulder my load in that I know damn well others have it much worse than me, so what am I yammering on about, right ? Just buck up and deal with it soldier !
Except...
I have learned, the most about MYSELF, by listening to others struggles here. There is a certain fearlessness that comes from the raw vulnerability of being willing to put it all out there. You know, the whole, we are only as sick as our secrets thing ?
And in others doing just that, I have found, sharing my stories has done a few things. 1. It makes me feel like I'm not so alone. 2. It might help another and 3. It feels so good to let go of some of the weight of our burdens.
I read something today - it really impacted me. I hope it offers you some solace.
I want you to know that people are all blood and skin and soul and story. You are neither superior, nor inferior to anyone. You are traipsing through the same exact woods as the rest of humanity, you are caught in the same weather. Everyone has been maimed by the iron teeth of tragedy at some point in their lives.
If people are not limping, they are lying.
Congrats on 5 days.
Except...
I have learned, the most about MYSELF, by listening to others struggles here. There is a certain fearlessness that comes from the raw vulnerability of being willing to put it all out there. You know, the whole, we are only as sick as our secrets thing ?
And in others doing just that, I have found, sharing my stories has done a few things. 1. It makes me feel like I'm not so alone. 2. It might help another and 3. It feels so good to let go of some of the weight of our burdens.
I read something today - it really impacted me. I hope it offers you some solace.
I want you to know that people are all blood and skin and soul and story. You are neither superior, nor inferior to anyone. You are traipsing through the same exact woods as the rest of humanity, you are caught in the same weather. Everyone has been maimed by the iron teeth of tragedy at some point in their lives.
If people are not limping, they are lying.
Congrats on 5 days.
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Originally Posted by alphaomega
I have learned, the most about MYSELF, by listening to others struggles here. There is a certain fearlessness that comes from the raw vulnerability of being willing to put it all out there.
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Day 6
When I crawled into the bottle I let everything slide, even the little things like shaving regularly, trimming toenails, or maintaining a proper inventory of Funyuns. Today, my Day 6, I vow to attend to those little things. I shall begin by burying dead soldiers.
My house looks like there was a shootout at Whiskey Gulch, empty bottles, dead soldiers, everywhere. I need to dispose of the bodies.
I considered using one of my hallways as a bowling alley and setting the empty booze bottles up as bowling pins. But the alley wouldn't have a gutter, and every alcoholic needs a gutter.
You see, prior to SR I was drinking about a fifth-and-a-half a day. That adds up to lotsa bottles. And I wouldn't throw the bottles away. It’s not like I treasured them. I just didn't want to put them out in curbside recycling for everyone to see. Still don’t. So, for this one day, I’m going to show utter disregard for the environment and just pitch the darn things in the garbage.
So there.
This will be the first of many items on my “Little Things” agenda.
Tomorrow I’ll vacuum the cat.
My house looks like there was a shootout at Whiskey Gulch, empty bottles, dead soldiers, everywhere. I need to dispose of the bodies.
I considered using one of my hallways as a bowling alley and setting the empty booze bottles up as bowling pins. But the alley wouldn't have a gutter, and every alcoholic needs a gutter.
You see, prior to SR I was drinking about a fifth-and-a-half a day. That adds up to lotsa bottles. And I wouldn't throw the bottles away. It’s not like I treasured them. I just didn't want to put them out in curbside recycling for everyone to see. Still don’t. So, for this one day, I’m going to show utter disregard for the environment and just pitch the darn things in the garbage.
So there.
This will be the first of many items on my “Little Things” agenda.
Tomorrow I’ll vacuum the cat.
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