Still drinking
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Join Date: Mar 2015
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Still drinking
over the last week I've had drinks at least 5 nights.
The cravings are worse then I've experienced before I was using and stopped the pain meds. The effects of drinking seems different as well, I seem to get drunk easier and somewhat hung over, which I rarely ever did before.
On the one hand I'm convinced that I should not be drinking anymore but I'm also feeling more addicted then I've ever felt towards alcohol in the past.
Seems what I was taught about cross addiction in rehab is true. I've got to face the facts, for me personally, clean is clean and using is using. No grey area.
I've got to let go of the thought that, "my pain med use was so bad, drinking is nothing like that".
Time to take a stand I think... Day one today.
Thanks,
- D
The cravings are worse then I've experienced before I was using and stopped the pain meds. The effects of drinking seems different as well, I seem to get drunk easier and somewhat hung over, which I rarely ever did before.
On the one hand I'm convinced that I should not be drinking anymore but I'm also feeling more addicted then I've ever felt towards alcohol in the past.
Seems what I was taught about cross addiction in rehab is true. I've got to face the facts, for me personally, clean is clean and using is using. No grey area.
I've got to let go of the thought that, "my pain med use was so bad, drinking is nothing like that".
Time to take a stand I think... Day one today.
Thanks,
- D
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Hi.
For a memory re fresh alcoholism is progressive and never will get better.
Alcohol is powerful, cunning, baffling and insidious.
Many of us play games in our head to minimize its effects and justify continue its use with grave results.
In many cases it’s tough to withdraw from without doing certain things, we need to want to, we need to be honest with our self about our drinking and accept the fact we cannot drink in safety one day at a time in a row.
For much of this we need to hear this repeatedly to change our thinking process permanently.
Meetings, if we like them or not, a lot of reading here are a big helper no matter how long we’ve been alcohol free.
Believe that it’s well worth it to end the spiral down.
BE WELL
For a memory re fresh alcoholism is progressive and never will get better.
Alcohol is powerful, cunning, baffling and insidious.
Many of us play games in our head to minimize its effects and justify continue its use with grave results.
In many cases it’s tough to withdraw from without doing certain things, we need to want to, we need to be honest with our self about our drinking and accept the fact we cannot drink in safety one day at a time in a row.
For much of this we need to hear this repeatedly to change our thinking process permanently.
Meetings, if we like them or not, a lot of reading here are a big helper no matter how long we’ve been alcohol free.
Believe that it’s well worth it to end the spiral down.
BE WELL
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Join Date: Mar 2015
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I slept lousy last night, felt spaced out most of the day but no drinks tonight. I know I need to completely stop and I'm getting it clear in my head that I will. Two days now.
I have a vision of how I want to be, how I want to act. It requires consistancy, consistancy that I know will only come if I take better care of myself.
Better health, better mind, better life.
I'm tierd...
Cya,
D
I have a vision of how I want to be, how I want to act. It requires consistancy, consistancy that I know will only come if I take better care of myself.
Better health, better mind, better life.
I'm tierd...
Cya,
D
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