sobering up and I start again Well, seems as thought I've got myself into a bit of trouble again. Got a few bucks to my name and decided to drink. Read my post from the other day ( and don't remember writing any of it) I am glad it got closed becasuse I was descending into nothingness. I thank all that replied, I am sorry, I do read all the replies and am forever grateful for the responses and advice. I am often locked in a horrible mentality, so I don't always reply and I am sorry. Today isn't actually day one, I can't lie, I have 5 beers left, I am slowly drinking them, probably not the best idea, but I don't know what to do. I am going to start again, Monday I am going to have to repair what damage I can. I actually gave rehab this website address, and told them I use here for help. Anything I type here well be read. Maybe its best, at least I was honest. I don't know why I can't stay stopped, this truly troubles me. I am at a loss, sober felt great. I loved being sober, things were on the way up, and then I blew, got a little beer then went off the deep end. |
Originally Posted by Thatdeliveryguy
(Post 5312746)
Today isn't actually day one, I can't lie, I have 5 beers left, I am slowly drinking them, probably not the best idea, but I don't know what to do. |
Please come back when you are not drinking, Jeremy, thanks. |
Sorry Anna, I will sober up and then comeback |
Originally Posted by Thatdeliveryguy
(Post 5312746)
I don't know why I can't stay stopped, this truly troubles me. I am at a loss, sober felt great. I loved being sober, things were on the way up, and then I blew, got a little beer then went off the deep end. Jeremy, from what I have been able to glean from your threads, you seem to play one against the other, yes? As for those beers.... Dump them. There is no better time to quit than now, yeah? EDIT: I agree of course, posting while drunk doesn't always have upsides. |
I hope this was the last wake-up call. Please work with your counselors to get into inpatient immediately. You know it's time, Jeremy. |
1. Quit drinking 2. Take your meds 3. Schedule inpatient detox...today. Those are the only 3 things you should be considering now. |
Agree with Scott. those are the three best options for you today, First things first. This doesn't have to get any worse, dear TDG. Love from Lenina |
Welcome back Jeremy!! :) |
You know what you need to do. You just don't want to do it. John |
Originally Posted by Thatdeliveryguy
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Sorry Anna, I will sober up and then comeback You too have that choice. Choose LIFE Or choose not I hope you make the right choice for you x Driving my wagon of hope through beautiful views on my road to myself |
Originally Posted by Lenina
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Agree with Scott. those are the three best options for you today, First things first. This doesn't have to get any worse, dear TDG. Love from Lenina |
Originally Posted by Thatdeliveryguy
(Post 5312746)
I don't know why I can't stay stopped This isn't a game, this is your life. |
Jeremy, rootin for ya. :egypt: http://fc07.deviantart.net/fs27/f/20...by_Frankii.jpg |
When you wake up and check in on the thread, do no explaining, apologizing, pontificating, analyzing, defending... do what scott said below immediately. Nothing else. Please bro, okay?
Originally Posted by ScottFromWI
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1. Quit drinking 2. Take your meds 3. Schedule inpatient detox...today. Those are the only 3 things you should be considering now. |
Originally Posted by Thatdeliveryguy
(Post 5312746)
I don't know why I can't stay stopped, this truly troubles me. I am at a loss, sober felt great. I loved being sober, things were on the way up, and then I blew, got a little beer then went off the deep end. At least you are going to give it another shot, TDG. Never give up. It will eventually stick. You seem like a really nice person and I'm rooting for you. |
Hope you're getting all the help you want TDG. All the best! |
Am I the only one who thinks that we are unwittingly becoming part of the problem with Jeremy? I really feel that some people become hooked on the drama that writing desperate posts cause. I am in no doubt that you have some serious problems Jeremy and my heart hurts for you. But you have been helped time and time again by people, some of whom are in the same dire situations. If you took the time to re-read some of the excellent posts when you are clear headed and sober, you will read about people who have overcome exactly the same problems you have. I'm not sure that any of us are helping you at all by answering you when you are drunk. We just become players in your games. It is all very sad. |
Originally Posted by Jeni26
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Am I the only one who thinks that we are unwittingly becoming part of the problem with Jeremy? I really feel that some people become hooked on the drama that writing desperate posts cause. I am in no doubt that you have some serious problems Jeremy and my heart hurts for you. But you have been helped time and time again by people, some of whom are in the same dire situations. If you took the time to re-read some of the excellent posts when you are clear headed and sober, you will read about people who have overcome exactly the same problems you have. I'm not sure that any of us are helping you at all by answering you when you are drunk. We just become players in your games. It is all very sad. We love you man, please get help. It's been a year on this merry go round. I know it's hard, and understand I am one of those that seem to have a hard time staying quit. But I am trying options, last one being to get myself diagnosed for mental health issues, or depression, or whatever the hell is wrong with me. I go 3 months, then fall, rinse repeat. So piggy back on me if you want. But man, try to chip away at this with some serious moves. There is a way out, for some it just takes more tweaking. Tweak away Jeremy ;-) |
Here, if no one else wants to say it, I will: Quit seeking attention, and get yourself the help you know you need. We're not your pawns, and what you're doing is disrespectful. |
Lets not lose sight of what we do here. No offense to anyone who's posted here, but I think the best (worst) way to feed drama is by speaking about a poster, or down to them, rather than *to* them. If you have constructive comments or criticism to make to the OP, please do contribute. If you haven't..thats fine...it's ok to not post in this thread...there's a stream of newcomers here at any given hour of the clock who would love some support :) Dee Moderator SR |
Originally Posted by Thatdeliveryguy
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Got a few bucks to my name and decided to drink. I truly get how hard it is to quit and what a struggle it is. You are progressively getting worse. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers Jeremy. I hope you can find some peace. |
Sorry Dee. |
Hi Delivery Guy, I don't think we've spoken before. I am new to sobriety after having money burning a hole in my pocket the other day and going on autopilot to buy a drink. I had one and then opened up my journal and looked at all the positives I'd written when I was sober. I tipped away the rest of the alcohol and spent an hour writing frantically - anything that came into my head! Treatment is available to you and that's a really good thing. This is an amazing opportunity and from what I've heard from friends, rehab can teach you some brilliant tools to help you in your new life. I hope you got rid of the beer. You don't need to keep doing this to yourself. It doesn't serve you, so why not try learning how to stop serving it? This place will be here when you're out of treatment, and maybe it can be used as part of your recovery programme. Good luck :-) |
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