NewJosh

Well, I'm back and now I've got 24 hours of sobriety under my belt.

I finally hit rock bottom. I'm really lost and facing eviction. But I guess I had an "epiphany". Everything bad in my life has been caused by alcohol. It has done nothing but drain and destroy me.

The one thought that is keeping me going right now is the idea of me rising out of this like a Phoenix. Rising up out of the ashes of my past and what I've allowed myself to become.

So here goes. A new beginning.

ScottFromWI

Welcome back Josh, sorry to hear of your troubles. Do you have a plan this time around? Can we help you build one?

thomas11

hi josh, sounds like you are at fork in the road, one way will be more than happy to take everything in life away from you slowly and painfully, the other way will require work and effort but will allow you to be all you can be. Soon there will be people here that can help you. I wish you the very best and congrats on day 1.

Wastinglife

I've been there Josh. I was evicted once because I kept drinking my rent away. I hit rock bottom hard and finally got help only when I was kicked out by my girlfriend then with less than $10 to my name. Ended up on my parents doorstep at age 34 and begging for help.

Rock bottom can be the foundation to rebuild your life on.

Db1105

Many of us had a few another first day before things finally clicked.

NewJosh

Yes. I think the biggest difference this time around is that something clicked and I'm really viewing alcohol as a poison. A drug. Like heroin. And I've learned I can't just "have one". In the past that thought made me sad...like I was losing a friend. But, I don't know, I guess it's that sudden realization that ALMOST everything wrong and bad in my life is because of alcohol. I say almost because we all probably drink due to underlying issues. And to escape those issues. So that's another part of my plan. To circle and seek out these issues.

Also I've started keeping a journal.

Finally, I'm re establishing my relationship with God.

And then there's the excitement of knowing, through all of this pain and fire and through all of the tears and regrets I CAN be made new. I CAN be stronger. It's almost like passing through a refining fire.

I'm always open to any tips and suggestions.

Soberwolf

Welcome bk Josh

NewJosh

I'm almost 34. I like how Eminem put it : "Hit my bottom so hard I bounced twice"

firstymer

A new beginning. I like that.

Good luck.

PurpleKnight

Welcome back to Josh!!

Hevyn

double post

Hevyn

Good to meet you Josh. I'm so glad you have those 24 hrs. We know how hard it is - but things will ease up & you'll get your life back. Happy to have you here.

anattaboy

Way to go Josh! Keep on Bankin those 24's--they add up.

pocketpanda

Good for you Josh! Glad you're here.