I feel like I'm metamorphosing!
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I feel like I'm metamorphosing!
I can't stress enough how vital this forum has been in helping, guiding, and coaching me through this, the longest ever by far attempt to stop drinking.
I now truly believe I will never drink again and that's not something I would have considered saying in my wildest dreams up till the end of last year.
The biggest lesson I've learned is that stopping drinking is the easy bit - just don't do it. After gritting my teeth and hanging on I got some days under my belt. The days turned to weeks and now I'm thrilled to say I'm counting my length of sobriety in terms of months - just over 5 now
What was vital to me was truly understanding the concept of recovery and sobriety. To me they are nothing to do with alcohol now as that was part of my old life. It's about rediscovering lost potential, getting back on track with building the life and becoming the person that the years of drinking prevented and nearly destroyed.
At one stage, because there's never been a time in my adult life when I didn't drink, I felt robbed and cheated.....all those wasted years. I wonder though if you must have a huge amount of inner strength and resilience to withstand all the **** that a serious drink habit throws at you. All those untapped resources waiting to be used for positive growth and action once the onslaught caused by addiction has been removed.
So here I am, 5 months down the line with Spring blossoming feeling really positive and for the first time since I can remember almost, dare I say....content.
I don't post on here too often but read daily and the amount of truth and wisdom in these boards is phenomenal. It's because of this that I've started to change the way I view people and situations. Not everyone is out to get me, the world doesn't hate me and I don't have to be in control of everything around me anymore.
I am beginning to feel real positive changes physically and mentally - and being an atheist I never felt I'd use the word........spiritually
So for those starting out - when folk ask questions like "what are your plans for recovery" or "what will you do differently this time" really put some effort into answering this for yourself. How will you make steps to rediscover the real you - the one that was hidden and wasted by booze. Plans like this can turn this journey from something terrifying to something so exciting!
At the end of all this - I might not become the most beautiful butterfly in the garden - but I'll be a half decent moth at least
I now truly believe I will never drink again and that's not something I would have considered saying in my wildest dreams up till the end of last year.
The biggest lesson I've learned is that stopping drinking is the easy bit - just don't do it. After gritting my teeth and hanging on I got some days under my belt. The days turned to weeks and now I'm thrilled to say I'm counting my length of sobriety in terms of months - just over 5 now
What was vital to me was truly understanding the concept of recovery and sobriety. To me they are nothing to do with alcohol now as that was part of my old life. It's about rediscovering lost potential, getting back on track with building the life and becoming the person that the years of drinking prevented and nearly destroyed.
At one stage, because there's never been a time in my adult life when I didn't drink, I felt robbed and cheated.....all those wasted years. I wonder though if you must have a huge amount of inner strength and resilience to withstand all the **** that a serious drink habit throws at you. All those untapped resources waiting to be used for positive growth and action once the onslaught caused by addiction has been removed.
So here I am, 5 months down the line with Spring blossoming feeling really positive and for the first time since I can remember almost, dare I say....content.
I don't post on here too often but read daily and the amount of truth and wisdom in these boards is phenomenal. It's because of this that I've started to change the way I view people and situations. Not everyone is out to get me, the world doesn't hate me and I don't have to be in control of everything around me anymore.
I am beginning to feel real positive changes physically and mentally - and being an atheist I never felt I'd use the word........spiritually
So for those starting out - when folk ask questions like "what are your plans for recovery" or "what will you do differently this time" really put some effort into answering this for yourself. How will you make steps to rediscover the real you - the one that was hidden and wasted by booze. Plans like this can turn this journey from something terrifying to something so exciting!
At the end of all this - I might not become the most beautiful butterfly in the garden - but I'll be a half decent moth at least
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Originally Posted by Hendrix 
At the end of all this - I might not become the most beautiful butterfly in the garden
You were always a butterfly, all of us are, all we have to do is find the willingness to change and then back it up with action.
Congratulations on five months! Keep on using those beautiful wings!
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Location: PA
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great post Hendrix. Congrats on 5 months.
Just one thing... How about start calling it something besides an "attempt" at sobriety.
5 months sober is better than 'attempt'.
It's like when people use that Yoda saying, "There is try and there is do." You are doing it.
Just one thing... How about start calling it something besides an "attempt" at sobriety.
5 months sober is better than 'attempt'.
It's like when people use that Yoda saying, "There is try and there is do." You are doing it.
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