MrsLamp

Beat, I give up, walked out of my job two months ago, blamed everything and everybody except drink, marriage over no friends been isolating, spent today in bedroom not many sunny days where i live and wasted it wanting to die. pathetic im a waste of space. suddenly alcoholic other half wants to "try" i told him thirty years ago i had problem and he said if he wants a drink he will have a drink. I shake and panic if i cant drink he said today it was going down sink it didnt, im drinking on my own now he didnt pour it away he went to bed sober! sorry that sounds as if im blaming him see above. I miss my job i miss my colleagues. Not so long ago i would use a holiday weekend like this to make sure i catch up with our two lovely kids and invite them to come for nice meal. not been over door except to walk dog. Sorry I didn't listen before, please help. best wishes to you all Mrs Lamp.

Soberwolf

Hi Mrs Lamp glad your here giving things another go

try this http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-recovery.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html

MrsLamp

Thank you Soberwolf,so appreciate your reply.

Thepatman

Sorry you are in this bad situation. You can stop the chaos by not picking up another drink.
Accepting that we cannot have even one is the hard part.

Keep your head up, see your doctor and he can help with detox and withdrawals.

MrsLamp

Thank you Thepatman, really appreciate your reply. best wishes to you.

Hevyn

MrsLamp - I'm so glad you posted. Please remember, you're never alone. Most of us have been through similar things, and we understand. You can get your life back.

MrsLamp

Thank you so much for reply Hevyn, really appreciate it, best wishes to you.

PurpleKnight

You can turn this around, 1 Day at a time, that's all any of us started doing!!

SR is in your corner and want's you to beat this!!

Fandy

Dear Mrs. Lamp!

I do remember you from a year or more ago with your Christmas sober struggles. I remember how you posted about getting dressed from what you found on the floor.

If you WANT to be sober,you are getting ready to win, you can change and overcome, but please see your doctor and get some professional counseling. You need help besides us, Use every tool that will help you.

glad that you have come back!

If you can get some sobriety, the clarity will return and the depression will start to lift.

MrsLamp

Purple night and Fandy thank you so much, You give me hope.

Della1968

Last August I resigned from my job before they could fire me...September my fiance left..I continued to have my pity party alone. I got sober and in January I got a job I love and I am happy. Just 3 months and my life and outlook have improved drastically. Give it a try I don't think you will develop any new regrets by being sober.

saoutchik

Hi Mrs lamp you sound like a nice person so don't give up on yourself .

Alcohol made me feel the same, pathetic, waste of space etc. That's what it does but I can tell you're none of those things.

I'mean glad you posted MrsLamp

Dee74

It's never too late MrsLamp

do you have any ideas on what you might do? see your Dr or a counsellor, AA or some other meeting based recovery group, inpatient or outpatient rehab?

D

MrsLamp

Della, Saoutchik, Dee74, Thank you so much for replies, I dont feel quite so alone now.

MIRecovery

The last 3 years of my drinking I hoped I wouldn't wake up. Every morning I'd wake and there I was.

I finally decided if I wasn't going to die I'd better live.

I found AA and took the first step toward sobriety

MrsLamp

Thank you MIrecovery, been thinking about AA. went to meeting when i was much younger, should have stayed.

Fandy

There is always HOPE when you want to get sober. You will need to do some work in that you will fight the urge to drink, get some stability and a check up with your doctor.

What is the firs thing to do? Call your doctor for an appointment and tell them the truth when you go in. They won't judge you, they will help you over the hurdles that can draw you back to drinking.

there is a huge trade off when you give up drinking....You get your life back and can do so much more actual LIVING. sounds good doesn't it? not being controlled by a liquid?

MrsLamp

Thank you Fandy, best wishes to you. x

resolute50

Sobriety

It's the foundation that a new life can be built on.
Like a rock.

trachemys

It is never, never time to die.