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Keeping it simple!
Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Surrey, BC
Posts: 3,284
Originally Posted by MarathonMan 
I give up.
Go back and read your post here.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...7-40-days.html
now read it again. and again. and again. I bet your kids will never give up on you. Don't give up on yourself.
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love is the answer
Join Date: Aug 2014
Location: UK
Posts: 1,352
Originally Posted by MarathonMan
Signing off for a while, sorry about my posts last night. Going to a 7 day detox to safetly get the alcohol out of my system. Keep strong everyone and ill speak to you on the other side.
I am so very proud of you.
Good luck.
A work in progress
Join Date: Jul 2010
Location: South Jersey
Posts: 16,633
Hey, dude,
Just read your thread. Just wanted to throw out something else to think about. My first husband got sober before we got married, when he was only 21. He just celebrated 35 years of continuous sobriety.
We got divorced (for other reasons) when our kids were young. His sobriety made it possible for him to be the custodial parent. His sobriety made it possible for him to be a very involved dad, and a great husband to his second wife (he was a great husband to me when we were married). His sobriety made it possible for him to cooperate with me as we raised our kids, and to keep me involved in their lives. Our kids are out on their own now, but he is still very close to them--that's due to his sobriety. And last but not least, when I found that my own drinking had spiraled out of control and that I had to get sober in AA, he was a huge support to me in my own sobriety.
So keep your eye on the ball. Whether your marriage survives or not, you can still be an awesome dad IF you do what you need to do to make a full recovery. You can have many happy years to look forward to and a chance to make lasting memories with your child. Put your sobriety first--above your marriage, your job, or anything else, and good things will come to pass--and that's a PROMISE.
Just read your thread. Just wanted to throw out something else to think about. My first husband got sober before we got married, when he was only 21. He just celebrated 35 years of continuous sobriety.
We got divorced (for other reasons) when our kids were young. His sobriety made it possible for him to be the custodial parent. His sobriety made it possible for him to be a very involved dad, and a great husband to his second wife (he was a great husband to me when we were married). His sobriety made it possible for him to cooperate with me as we raised our kids, and to keep me involved in their lives. Our kids are out on their own now, but he is still very close to them--that's due to his sobriety. And last but not least, when I found that my own drinking had spiraled out of control and that I had to get sober in AA, he was a huge support to me in my own sobriety.
So keep your eye on the ball. Whether your marriage survives or not, you can still be an awesome dad IF you do what you need to do to make a full recovery. You can have many happy years to look forward to and a chance to make lasting memories with your child. Put your sobriety first--above your marriage, your job, or anything else, and good things will come to pass--and that's a PROMISE.
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Posts: 390
You don't know me. This is the first post I have ever read from you. I read all of it. I have tears because I could only think "he has so much to live for!" I'm happy you are at a detox facility.
I also wanted you to know that reading your posts motivated to start training again for a half marathon.
Here's to restarts and support. ((((hugs))))
I also wanted you to know that reading your posts motivated to start training again for a half marathon.
Here's to restarts and support. ((((hugs))))
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Join Date: Apr 2014
Location: Alberta, Canada
Posts: 556
Originally Posted by biminiblue
Pick your self up. You had a lot of sober time and chose to throw it away.
Man up. This isn't a game.
We don't get do-overs. Make it right.
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: UK
Posts: 611
Hello everyone,
First of all just wanted to apologies for the way I behaved the last few times I was on here. I think somewhere along the way my brain finally bashed down on that self destruct button and I completely lost control of myself. I'm so glad I finally heeded the advice on here and got some help, my life was spiraling out of control so quickly I couldn't keep up and I was far to out of my mind to make any helpful decisions.
Not saying anything is so far cured. My wife hasn't come back and I feel very sad in the house all alone but I came out of the rehab centre yesterday morning after an 8 day stay and 5 day medically assisted detox. It was actually pretty good and a relief from the shambles my body turned into when trying to do it alone. It was definitely a lot different from the strapped to the bed image I had of a medical detox. I wish I could have stayed longer as they had a 28 day option but the place was just so expensive I couldn't afford any further time there.
Going to the doctors this morning to try and get a prescription for Antabuse which I think will help to lift the obsession a bit. When you know you simply can't do something you tend to not waste as much time thinking about it.....that's the hope anyway.
Got AA tonight and will be completing 90 in 90 over the next few months. I'm not a big AA person but I've given up worrying about what I want or what fits as non of that stuff worked and I think I'll end up dead if I follow my own plan for very much longer.
I finally admit that my life had become totally unmanageable which I don't think I ever believed before. I think I would have killed myself pretty soon without the intervention I got....not suicide or anything just choked or had a seizure or something along those lines.
My wife new I got out of detox yesterday and also knows that my boss has given me 2 weeks off. She turned up yesterday at the house un-announced for me to see my son. She managed to get into every room for a look around within the first 10 minutes. Also heard her check the fridge when I went to the toilet. I understand this and hope it is a sign that if I stay clean she will want to come back but for now just feels the need to see if I'm sticking to my word. I don't blame her, I've been something of a let down the last few months.
Anyway excuse my rambling but SR is the only friend I've really got at the minute. Day 10 sober today, taking nothing for granted and feel humbled in every way possible.
Have a good day all.
First of all just wanted to apologies for the way I behaved the last few times I was on here. I think somewhere along the way my brain finally bashed down on that self destruct button and I completely lost control of myself. I'm so glad I finally heeded the advice on here and got some help, my life was spiraling out of control so quickly I couldn't keep up and I was far to out of my mind to make any helpful decisions.
Not saying anything is so far cured. My wife hasn't come back and I feel very sad in the house all alone but I came out of the rehab centre yesterday morning after an 8 day stay and 5 day medically assisted detox. It was actually pretty good and a relief from the shambles my body turned into when trying to do it alone. It was definitely a lot different from the strapped to the bed image I had of a medical detox. I wish I could have stayed longer as they had a 28 day option but the place was just so expensive I couldn't afford any further time there.
Going to the doctors this morning to try and get a prescription for Antabuse which I think will help to lift the obsession a bit. When you know you simply can't do something you tend to not waste as much time thinking about it.....that's the hope anyway.
Got AA tonight and will be completing 90 in 90 over the next few months. I'm not a big AA person but I've given up worrying about what I want or what fits as non of that stuff worked and I think I'll end up dead if I follow my own plan for very much longer.
I finally admit that my life had become totally unmanageable which I don't think I ever believed before. I think I would have killed myself pretty soon without the intervention I got....not suicide or anything just choked or had a seizure or something along those lines.
My wife new I got out of detox yesterday and also knows that my boss has given me 2 weeks off. She turned up yesterday at the house un-announced for me to see my son. She managed to get into every room for a look around within the first 10 minutes. Also heard her check the fridge when I went to the toilet. I understand this and hope it is a sign that if I stay clean she will want to come back but for now just feels the need to see if I'm sticking to my word. I don't blame her, I've been something of a let down the last few months.
Anyway excuse my rambling but SR is the only friend I've really got at the minute. Day 10 sober today, taking nothing for granted and feel humbled in every way possible.
Have a good day all.
love is the answer
Join Date: Aug 2014
Location: UK
Posts: 1,352
Originally Posted by MarathonMan
Hello everyone,
First of all just wanted to apologies for the way I behaved the last few times I was on here. I think somewhere along the way my brain finally bashed down on that self destruct button and I completely lost control of myself. I'm so glad I finally heeded the advice on here and got some help, my life was spiraling out of control so quickly I couldn't keep up and I was far to out of my mind to make any helpful decisions.
Not saying anything is so far cured. My wife hasn't come back and I feel very sad in the house all alone but I came out of the rehab centre yesterday morning after an 8 day stay and 5 day medically assisted detox. It was actually pretty good and a relief from the shambles my body turned into when trying to do it alone. It was definitely a lot different from the strapped to the bed image I had of a medical detox. I wish I could have stayed longer as they had a 28 day option but the place was just so expensive I couldn't afford any further time there.
Going to the doctors this morning to try and get a prescription for Antabuse which I think will help to lift the obsession a bit. When you know you simply can't do something you tend to not waste as much time thinking about it.....that's the hope anyway.
Got AA tonight and will be completing 90 in 90 over the next few months. I'm not a big AA person but I've given up worrying about what I want or what fits as non of that stuff worked and I think I'll end up dead if I follow my own plan for very much longer.
I finally admit that my life had become totally unmanageable which I don't think I ever believed before. I think I would have killed myself pretty soon without the intervention I got....not suicide or anything just choked or had a seizure or something along those lines.
My wife new I got out of detox yesterday and also knows that my boss has given me 2 weeks off. She turned up yesterday at the house un-announced for me to see my son. She managed to get into every room for a look around within the first 10 minutes. Also heard her check the fridge when I went to the toilet. I understand this and hope it is a sign that if I stay clean she will want to come back but for now just feels the need to see if I'm sticking to my word. I don't blame her, I've been something of a let down the last few months.
Anyway excuse my rambling but SR is the only friend I've really got at the minute. Day 10 sober today, taking nothing for granted and feel humbled in every way possible.
Have a good day all.
First of all just wanted to apologies for the way I behaved the last few times I was on here. I think somewhere along the way my brain finally bashed down on that self destruct button and I completely lost control of myself. I'm so glad I finally heeded the advice on here and got some help, my life was spiraling out of control so quickly I couldn't keep up and I was far to out of my mind to make any helpful decisions.
Not saying anything is so far cured. My wife hasn't come back and I feel very sad in the house all alone but I came out of the rehab centre yesterday morning after an 8 day stay and 5 day medically assisted detox. It was actually pretty good and a relief from the shambles my body turned into when trying to do it alone. It was definitely a lot different from the strapped to the bed image I had of a medical detox. I wish I could have stayed longer as they had a 28 day option but the place was just so expensive I couldn't afford any further time there.
Going to the doctors this morning to try and get a prescription for Antabuse which I think will help to lift the obsession a bit. When you know you simply can't do something you tend to not waste as much time thinking about it.....that's the hope anyway.
Got AA tonight and will be completing 90 in 90 over the next few months. I'm not a big AA person but I've given up worrying about what I want or what fits as non of that stuff worked and I think I'll end up dead if I follow my own plan for very much longer.
I finally admit that my life had become totally unmanageable which I don't think I ever believed before. I think I would have killed myself pretty soon without the intervention I got....not suicide or anything just choked or had a seizure or something along those lines.
My wife new I got out of detox yesterday and also knows that my boss has given me 2 weeks off. She turned up yesterday at the house un-announced for me to see my son. She managed to get into every room for a look around within the first 10 minutes. Also heard her check the fridge when I went to the toilet. I understand this and hope it is a sign that if I stay clean she will want to come back but for now just feels the need to see if I'm sticking to my word. I don't blame her, I've been something of a let down the last few months.
Anyway excuse my rambling but SR is the only friend I've really got at the minute. Day 10 sober today, taking nothing for granted and feel humbled in every way possible.
Have a good day all.
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