Day 2
 

First time I've even made it to day two in quite some time.

Yesterday I was upset over a bad doctor's appt so I didn't make it to the gym. Goals for today- shop vac my carpets, finish cleaning, cook some food and definerly the gym! Wish I could be outside too but too much rain.

I went to a meeting yesterday so I'm going to try to do 90/90. I only have one job now so nothing is stopping me. In the words of Jeff Van Vonderen from Intervention, "90 days are going to go by anway."

Been having a crisis or some huge issue every day lately, hope I get a day off from it today. Yesterday was pretty terrible.

our days can be what we make them... crises and all.

There is always at least One Good Thing.

You can do it!!!

Well done, day two.

:ring

Congrats on the 2 days. Early days are the hardest for me.

Day 2 is fantastic!

Well done on two days :c011:

Stick with it! Keep going to meetings. Don't give yourself too much to do.
Awesome job on your two days.

Jennifer

Congrats Alaina

Hi.
I needed to remember 1 minute, 1 hour and 1 day at a time in a row.
Most of my difficult encounters I labeled as problems were easily forgotten situations that would be a problem if I drank.
These sorts of things were learned at meetings from people who cared and had been through them while sobering up.

BE WELL

Went out to get my hair cut and get groceries. Depression is so bad right now. Think I'm going to eat and lay down.

It's this feeling of overwhelming sadness and emptiness. Is this me or is this early recovery? (I'm seeing a doctor about this.)

Overwhelming emotions in early recovery can be common. It should get better the longer you're sober. :hug:

This is almost unbearable

I got the biggest smile on my face when I saw your post! Day 2 is awesome! You only have to do this once, alaina. Hang in there!

It's sooooo worth sticking with it. For me, the relief at the pressure and nightmare being over was incredible.

I don't know about anyone else but it was normal for me to feel sad and empty in the beginning for sure.

It may *seem* unbearable but it wasn't...I was just so utterly unused to feeling...

things got better - hang in there Alaina :)

D

So I'm at the gym. I don't know how I made it here, but I did. So here I am, downloading new TV shows for my phone and riding the bike. I may or may not do the elliptical, depends on my motivation level. I know exercise helps with my mood but it's so hard on those days where you feel terrible to do ANYTHING.

The other thing that really depresses me is that my best friend is sick. That means our lovely Saurday tradition of two meetings followed by lunch, the museum, a park, is cancelled/. I didn't get to go last week either because I had an appointment. It is seriously the best part of my week.

Speaking of friends, I need new ones. My supposed best friend can't be bothered to call me and talk to me knowing I was upset yesterday. And I'm trying to do this and it's HARD. Aka the reason she's not doing it. I was going to lend her money, but I'm not going to do it now. It's not my fault she spends money on stupid things. She has other friends with more money than me, let them bail her out (AGAIN).

I might make the extra drive to a meeting I've never been to before tonight. The woman I want to ask to be my sponsor goes to this meeting.

Keep pushing through Alaina!! Day 2 is Fantastic!! :scoregood

The gym went really well. Went to my 8pm meeting and now I'm making home made soup.

Those waves of sadness, emptiness and anxiety are normal the first few days. A lot of it is caused by the chemicals in your brain readjusting themselves.
You are doing great, keep pushing through.

Hey alaina742,

Congrats on day 2

I'm new to this too... Even if by yourself go for a walk, or coffee shop (I only have decaf coffee now cause I'm already hyper alert after quitting), meetup with an old friend, gym, watch a comedy (Dumb and Dummer is my fav)... These things are helping me, maybe they will help you.

:coaster