Mel12

Hi Littlebear -

35 days is great news! Your body, mind, and self are healing themselves rapidly as we speak without anyone having to think about it. Yet the body, mind, and self can just as rapidly go nuts with addiction in a relapse (as I have experienced) without any conscious or special effort.

Why all these seemingly automatic processes? There must be much out of sight and "under the hood" in human construction that accounts for both the dramatically good and the dramatically bad. It really is quite curious and interesting.

Mel

KAD

Speaking only from my own experience, it gets more difficult for me after a relapse because it weakens my resolve. It weakens my belief in my ability to quit and stay quit. It's like I mock myself whenever I try to find that strength again. That's why this time, I've decided to give AA a try. I've not done so well trying to do it all on my own. Having that group connection with others who get it and have experienced the same thing, not only helps me to not feel so alone with it, but holds me accountable. I'm just learning what it means to approach all this from a spiritual vantage point, which I've never done, and I believe that can be beneficial as well.

airwick

I have not relapsed so I'm not sure why it is harder the second time. The understanding of relapse does not rank high in my book. My concern is what I can do to stay SOBER and not Relapse.

Have a great day!