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Originally Posted by Dee74
(Post 5271389)
just a reference to male deer fighting, Thomas. I think you're scared Thomas - and while you feel things are still 'manageable' that fear is going to try and get you to put off permanent decision for change for another day. The problem with that is things can go from manageable to completely unmanageable very fast. I speak with some authority here cos I was very much like you. I lost a lot of the things I loved and cherished - but I kept rationalising things were still manageable. Trust me, This is not a passive condition. Every drink you take, every week that goes by, your addiction progresses. D ps you're very welcome to continue to post here. I believe you know the right things to do even if you find yourself unable to take your own advice right now. |
I got into the habit of using the user names as a general guideline cos sometimes later on people freak out about anonymity - but sure Jeff :) D |
Hi, Jeff. Good to see you. |
Jeff, that sounds like your AV & you are believing the nonsense it is feeding you. |
Originally Posted by thomas11
(Post 5271353)
I will be as truthful as I can. I am not ready to commit to 100% sobriety. I have not experienced consequences of my actions, except for a mild hangover and lastly, at times I believe I've "earned" some downtime to relax. |
Jeff, I'm rooting for you man. I must admit I'm missing the link between being the elite athlete that you have been and drinking as you cheer your guys on. You can pour it out and enjoy the matches, Jeff, I know you can. You'll actually enjoy them more sober. |
I'm a Minnesota alum myself and our mascot, Goldie the Golden Gopher says... http://www.forums.gopherhole.com/boa...atar2535_1.gif "Dump the booze, already." |
Originally Posted by courage2
(Post 5271778)
Thomas, I've been reading along with your posts most days. I'm confused now. If you're not ready to commit and believe you've "earned" continued drinking, why have you posted >300 times in less than a month to a website called soberrecovery? There's a mismatch, no? |
Originally Posted by thomas11
(Post 5272167)
When you figure me out, let me know. I haven't done it yet. |
Jeff, I felt the same way once - knew I was probably headed for trouble, but not ready to commit. I never dreamed I'd allow myself to become totally dependent on it. I was always going to stop before I reached that point - but I couldn't. In my 40's I was drinking all day. It was hell to try and get off it at that point. We're trying to help you avoid that fate. |
I hope you reconsider I used to think everything triggered me....now I know I just wanted to drink and those triggers were just an excuse to do so. I knew I had a problem in my mid 30's and still carried on for a decade. If I would have stopped then I would have avoided a lot of pain for myself and my loved ones. It was always going to be just one more event or one more weekend....then it was every day. |
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