silentrun

Any chance you could be talked out of having anymore tonight? Remember that thread where most of us said we could stop once we started it was just that the cravings took over.

thomas11

Thank you Hevyn, I read all your posts.

thomas11

Hi slentrun, yes, it's 7:27PM and I am done for the night. My wife and I are watching the quarter finals, and I am explaining to her what it means. We are cool. I appreciate everyone's concerns. I really do, in fact it hurts me that I hurt any of you.

Dee74

I'm sorry you've made this choice too Jeff.

Like I said in another thread, the fact I used to drink on a Friday for 30 years means nothing at all really.

I used to drink on a Frinday - now I don't. I used to watch TV while drinking, now I don't. I used to have a list of things I'd do with a drink - now I don't.

Sports is an excuse.

ask yourself why you're not ready to make that full total commitment yet....and because I'm a loser is a meaningless and untrue answer.

D

Dee74

I'm sorry you've made this choice too Jeff.

Like I said in another thread, the fact I used to drink on a Friday for 30 years means nothing at all really.

I used to drink on a Frinday - now I don't. I used to watch TV while drinking, now I don't. I used to have a list of things I'd do with a drink - now I don't.

Sports is an excuse.

ask yourself why you're not ready to make that full total commitment yet....and 'because I'm a loser' is a meaningless and untrue answer

D

least

I'm sorry you're giving in so easily.

FreeOwl

Well..... I have a feeling you're the one who's gonna be most disAppointed in you.

I hope you'll reconsider.

If not, I sincerely hope you make it back.

Unscathed.

doggonecarl

Sorry, but I'm not surprised. What would have surprised me would have been you remaining sober this weekend.

Maybe when your ready.

thomas11

I am not going to make excuses, but you guys realize that alcohol is an inanimate object correct? Its like a coffee table or a gun. It is just there, and if you f*ck with it enough, it will hurt you. I'm not trying to climb up on the roof and fly, or come down the chimney like santa clause, I'm just buzzin, watching my favorite sport. And my brother and his family are at the Wild game watching the Wild whoop some butt on Washington. I enjoy this. Now if I wake up tomorrow with the wife pissed off and feeling hungover like son of a gun, I will be equally as pissed myself. It hurts my heart to think that you guys care that much about ME? Its crazy, my own family doesn't care about me that much. And for that I say THANK YOU! I won't leave this family, even if i do struggle along the way!!

thomas11

[QUOTE=doggonecarl;5270627]Sorry, but I'm not surprised.

Appreciate your support doggonecarl. Its always helps my positive attitude.

ScottFromWI

I am enjoying the games today too. just fine without alcohol. You could be too. And I can guarantee I won't be on the roof or hungover tomorrow...can you?

thomas11

You don't have to apologize, I would have been surprised if you didn't have a comment on all of it. Since you have it figured out.

SoberLeigh

Drink plenty of water before going to bed tonight, Jeff, and lots tomorrow, too, to rehydrate.

Talk tomorrow.

thomas11

Soberleigh, I don't know who you are or where you came from, but I look for you every day. Thank you. It calms me. Good night. Talk tomorrow.

EndGameNYC

"I'm just a regular guy, havin' a coupla beers, and enjoying my favorite sport...Why is everyone making such a big deal about it?" (My paraphrase.)

Really.

Carlotta

I just hope you make it back. Some do, some don't.

Dee74

mmm...let pack the antlers away guys.

Thomas when you're sober again I really want an answer to this

not because I'm trying to embarrass you or show how awesome I am.

I know what I think the problem is with you - but me knowing that doesn't help you one bit.

You need to work this out, dude.

D

thomas11

Hi Dee, that's an excellent question. I will be as truthful as I can. I am not ready to commit to 100% sobriety. I have not experienced consequences of my actions, except for a mild hangover and lastly, at times I believe I've "earned" some downtime to relax. That's it in a nutshell. Having a nice hot cup of coffee at the moment. I will continue to offer encouragement and support to others if that's ok. Jeff.

By the way, what does it mean to put the antlers away? is that an english phrase?

Dee74

just a reference to male deer fighting, Thomas.

I think you're scared Thomas - and while you feel things are still 'manageable' that fear is going to try and get you to put off permanent decision for change for another day.

The problem with that is things can go from manageable to completely unmanageable very fast.

I speak with some authority here cos I was very much like you.

I lost a lot of the things I loved and cherished - but I kept rationalising things were still manageable.

Trust me, This is not a passive condition.

Every drink you take, every week that goes by, your addiction progresses.

D

ps you're very welcome to continue to post here. I believe you know the right things to do even if you find yourself unable to take your own advice right now.

silentrun

Don't wait until you have the end stage of this. Many of us here could say the same about our drinking. Nobody else in my life caught on to me. Part of you knows something is not right and that is why you are here. Yes, even if you can't wrap your head around quitting stay with us.