Day 4 check in - need to get out of my slump
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Day 4 check in - need to get out of my slump
Hello! Not much to report today. Just another work day. Unfortunately I've had a pretty stressful time at work the past couple weeks, but hopefully I will get that resolved sooner than later. I suppose I can be thankful to not have to deal with this with a hangover! Not that I drank on weeknights lately, but something to be grateful for nonetheless.
I've held it together alright this week considering how upset and distressed I was feeling after the weekend. However, I'm usually at the gym 2-4 times a week and eating very healthy and this week that has not been the case. I could blame having to work late, but that only accounts for some of it, mostly I've just been depressed and lazy and anxious and overwhelmed. However, I know myself and I know that I am not my best when I'm not keeping up on my health. I'm excited for the weekend so I have some time to recharge and get a plan together for next week. Of course I will also be on my guard for temptations. Since I have no plans except with my husband and parents I should be ok. I'm definitely kind of avoiding people for now, at least people in situations where there will be alcohol around.
I'm also still trying to take it one day at a time. I can definitely freak myself out trying to think too far ahead or worry too much about the past. Right now I really just need to focus on myself, my husband and my family. Today, I'm going to go home and try to eat something healthy and get the alcohol out of there. I still have a bunch leftover from a party and although it's not tempting to me now, I still feel ill looking at it and there is no reason for the temptation to be staring at me every time I go in the kitchen. Am I stupid for not already getting it out of there? I'm not interested in drinking it now, because I am not a daily drinker, but I just hate seeing it there. Doesn't feel good for my state of mind.
Can anyone recommend a good book about sobriety or living alcohol free? Not necessarily self-help, although those are good, too.
I've held it together alright this week considering how upset and distressed I was feeling after the weekend. However, I'm usually at the gym 2-4 times a week and eating very healthy and this week that has not been the case. I could blame having to work late, but that only accounts for some of it, mostly I've just been depressed and lazy and anxious and overwhelmed. However, I know myself and I know that I am not my best when I'm not keeping up on my health. I'm excited for the weekend so I have some time to recharge and get a plan together for next week. Of course I will also be on my guard for temptations. Since I have no plans except with my husband and parents I should be ok. I'm definitely kind of avoiding people for now, at least people in situations where there will be alcohol around.
I'm also still trying to take it one day at a time. I can definitely freak myself out trying to think too far ahead or worry too much about the past. Right now I really just need to focus on myself, my husband and my family. Today, I'm going to go home and try to eat something healthy and get the alcohol out of there. I still have a bunch leftover from a party and although it's not tempting to me now, I still feel ill looking at it and there is no reason for the temptation to be staring at me every time I go in the kitchen. Am I stupid for not already getting it out of there? I'm not interested in drinking it now, because I am not a daily drinker, but I just hate seeing it there. Doesn't feel good for my state of mind.
Can anyone recommend a good book about sobriety or living alcohol free? Not necessarily self-help, although those are good, too.
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Hi KeepTruckin
Like you, I have confined my binging to weekends in recent years (mainly!) But over time, the effects of those binges, especially psychologically, have got worse.
In the 4 or 5 days following a binge I cannot get myself to exercise, I eat badly, I sleep badly, I struggle with work and domestic challenges and it feels like I am in a never-ending cycle. But then, almost imperceptibly, the gloom starts to lift, sleep gets a little better and energy improves. The work issues don't look quite so insurmountable etc.
Within 3 weeks I will be feeling pretty good - quite solid and in control. Of course that it when I usually ruin it all again but then I have never made a commitment to do anything else - until now.
I hate those first 4 or 5 days after a binge - I try to avoid all people, all challenges, all duties and jobs, everything ... but they do pass. Keep on truckin', KeepTruckin - clear road up ahead!
CC
Like you, I have confined my binging to weekends in recent years (mainly!) But over time, the effects of those binges, especially psychologically, have got worse.
In the 4 or 5 days following a binge I cannot get myself to exercise, I eat badly, I sleep badly, I struggle with work and domestic challenges and it feels like I am in a never-ending cycle. But then, almost imperceptibly, the gloom starts to lift, sleep gets a little better and energy improves. The work issues don't look quite so insurmountable etc.
Within 3 weeks I will be feeling pretty good - quite solid and in control. Of course that it when I usually ruin it all again but then I have never made a commitment to do anything else - until now.
I hate those first 4 or 5 days after a binge - I try to avoid all people, all challenges, all duties and jobs, everything ... but they do pass. Keep on truckin', KeepTruckin - clear road up ahead!
CC
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Thank you! Yeah, I'm hoping to feel a little bit back to myself by the weekend so I can work out again. I'm trying to not beat myself up for being lazy this week, I will just make it up to myself by strengthening my resolve for a healthier lifestyle, starting with my sobriety 
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