Dave36

It's only 4 pm here. No way I can sleep. Once I get started things can get bad pretty quick. I just gotta ride this one out. I'm started now. Things gotta take their course.

Dave36

I'll be at this a few more days now. There's no going back

ScottFromWI

Quit drinking

Call your doctor

Go to an AA meeting

Call your local Alcohol/Drug Rehab center

Call the AA hotline

Those are some things you could do today, right now. Nothing really matters at this point other than stopping by any means so you can start working on other things, but right now you just need to stop.

Dee74

Dave - as Scott said there's any number of things you could do right now.
The idea you have to 'let this run its course' is absolute nonsense.

The longer you let yourself get carried down stream, the harder it's going to be for you to get back to where you want to be.

D

Dave36

I'm staying in at least and posting here instead of going out and getting in any real trouble. Besides irritating all of you. Oh once a switch is flipped it's not really up to me anymore. I was stupid and played with fire and got burned. There's nothing on earth that will stop this now until I burn out in a few days. I get bad guys. Once it gets me it gets me.

Dave36

The thing is once I'm here I like it a little. I'll burn out. It'll get to painful to continue then I'll come to my senses.

ScottFromWI

Let your wife take a look at what you have been posting for the last few days. Let her decide if she thinks it should continue.

The consequences could be FAR worse than you can fathom Dave.

Gonnachange

Whatever is or is not going on in your life, getting drunk is not going to either change or help the situation. Pour the stuff out.

Dave36

She's seen it. She's seen much worse from me.

ScottFromWI

What do you seek from us then? You won't find support or approval for you plan to just keep drinking until you burn out. If you can't quit for yourself, think of how colossally selfish you are being to your wife and family. Their patience with you is not eternal.

Dave36

Youre probably right. I'll sign off then. See you guys in a few days maybe.

Gonnachange

I'm personally struggling also, but have read enough on SR to know how the story ends. So do you and I'm sure both of us want a different ending. Not implying it's easy, only that it's necessary. Use all the resources at your disposal.

Gonnachange

No, do not do that. You were only asked a legitimate question. Everyone who is posting here is doing so to help and support you regardless of where we personally are in our relationship with alcohol.

Dee74

I hope you change your mind about this running the course thing Dave.
I really do.

For now tho, in the best interests of all, I think we'll leave things here.

thread closed.

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