crawler

My guilt from a blackout is gone. How do I keep from turning it into just another drunken night. It was a wake up call for me. I just can't believe how the brain works. One part knows how stupid it would be to drink, the others telling me to lighten up I deserve to relax,I learned my lesson. Not gonna drink today but I'd like too. Thanks for reading

Soberwolf

Thats your av the lil voice in your ear your doing the right thing reaching out

counter it with your acceptance & try this http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

Addiction Relapse Prevention Plan to Save Your Life

doggonecarl

Commit to sobriety. For good. No more drinking. Say it out loud.

But a goal without a plan is just a dream. So decide what you can do to support that decision to get sober. Decide what you are you going to do when the going gets tough. Determine the changes you need to implement to make this goal of a sober life.

It's being active in your recovery, as opposed to just "quitting drinking."

Weren't you going to call a counselor? What happened with that?

crawler

Still trying to find one through my insurance. A lot of places aren't taking new patients

Stu Purple

I'm viewing it along the lines of whether I want to live out my life in the grip of alcohol; endless repeats of blackouts, shame, guilt and pain, deteriorating health, hopelessly trying and failing to control my drinking over and over again, all the while upsetting, damaging and hurting those who care for me.

Or do I want to be free, to seek happiness and live at peace with myself?

I've been doing the former for over 20 years, ever since I was old enough to buy booze. As an alcoholic you can never 'learn your lesson', it will simply tighten its grip the longer you keep drinking.

freshstart57

You need to decide whether you will consume alcohol again. It takes a commitment to the level that the thought of drinking again can never take root in your mind. Sure, you could drink again, but you never ever will. No matter what happens.

Life is so much better without it - alcohol can't possibly improve on a fully loaded sober life.

PurpleKnight

Keep pushing through, what has been done is in the past, instead we need to keep moving forward!!

Dee74

Doesn't whatever happened last time, or however many times before that, give you pause for thought, Crawler?

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crawler

Thanks for advice. Got off phone with a friend of mine gonna go to a meeting this week. You're not required to speak right

Della1968

Nope not if you don't want to. I find it peaceful just to listen sometimes.