Day 75 Progress Report
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Day 75 Progress Report
Whew. It's been a journey.
I have spells where I feel great. Then a wave comes over me and I feel hungover and completely awful for three, four days, up to a week.
It is certainly better than before. Better than when I was drinking, and better than the first month of recovery for sure.
Oh, those triggers. Last week was bad. A couple of really crappy things happened. One might not seem so bad to someone else, but it hurt me deeply inside. Another thing was a major mishap at work. Not really my fault, but the stress was very high. I am a machinist, and it's a tough trade. Most I know are drunks or addicts.
I used to deal with the stress with pot and alcohol. It helped, momentarily, but it just built a raging fire inside me. A smoldering inferno waiting to combust.
I got through it. No drinks, but I badly wanted to. No weed either.
I had hoped to feel better by now. I know that it takes time. You don't get falling down drunk every night for over three decades and have it go away in a couple of months. I know it will get better. I know that I am making huge progress. Seventy-five days is miraculous when I consider the dependency I had.
One thing is for sure: I can never go back. And neither can you.
Onward.
I have spells where I feel great. Then a wave comes over me and I feel hungover and completely awful for three, four days, up to a week.
It is certainly better than before. Better than when I was drinking, and better than the first month of recovery for sure.
Oh, those triggers. Last week was bad. A couple of really crappy things happened. One might not seem so bad to someone else, but it hurt me deeply inside. Another thing was a major mishap at work. Not really my fault, but the stress was very high. I am a machinist, and it's a tough trade. Most I know are drunks or addicts.
I used to deal with the stress with pot and alcohol. It helped, momentarily, but it just built a raging fire inside me. A smoldering inferno waiting to combust.
I got through it. No drinks, but I badly wanted to. No weed either.
I had hoped to feel better by now. I know that it takes time. You don't get falling down drunk every night for over three decades and have it go away in a couple of months. I know it will get better. I know that I am making huge progress. Seventy-five days is miraculous when I consider the dependency I had.
One thing is for sure: I can never go back. And neither can you.
Onward.
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Sober is the new high. It's a trip! Really! Thinking more clearly, more focused, it reminds me of the very earliest days I was smoking weed. Except this is free, it won't get me busted, only it lasts longer. and has no burnout. 
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we must be on the same journey, Hope!
the novelty of not drinking is wearing off and my head goes into "hurry-up" mode to try to create a new lifestyle, but my body is dragging a bit. The sugar cravings got out of control but that is waning some. I am still too feeble to start aggressive exercise routine but i did have good yard day today doing spring cleanup. Just love sober Saturday nights and SUnday morninigs. CONGRATS to all!
Went by the overstocked liquor section at Costco today and nearly heaved walking by the huge cases of Jameson, so that is a good sign.
the novelty of not drinking is wearing off and my head goes into "hurry-up" mode to try to create a new lifestyle, but my body is dragging a bit. The sugar cravings got out of control but that is waning some. I am still too feeble to start aggressive exercise routine but i did have good yard day today doing spring cleanup. Just love sober Saturday nights and SUnday morninigs. CONGRATS to all!
Went by the overstocked liquor section at Costco today and nearly heaved walking by the huge cases of Jameson, so that is a good sign.
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