The Sun is Rising...
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The Sun is Rising...
For the first time since October, Philadelphia has been warm enough to do what I love doing most...wandering aimlessly for hours marveling at this amazing city. It was warm, sunny, and full of hope.
After almost a year of unemployment, a year that transformed me from borderline alcoholic into someone with a very real problem, I'm looking at the impending spring with a sense of optimism and rebirth. This alcoholic isn't me. I hate him. I hate drinking. He's someone that emerges around 6PM, a byproduct of boredom and fear.
But I'm more than that. I'm starting over. My career, my social life, I'm revisiting the person I was twenty years ago with the added benefit of hindsight.
I've never been one to learn from my mistakes. I give great advice I rarely follow. Who does't? But if I'm going to be a better person, if I'm going to thrive, I need to recognize my vices and shortcomings along side my strengths.
I keep telling myself, "if I land this job, I'll quit drinking." But no one's listening. Nor should they. The only higher power is myself. I will never land that job, I will never be that better person, until I decide to make myself that better person. This is my war to win. And the sun cresting across Fairmount Park has renewed my hope that this winter - and my struggle with the bottle - will end.
After almost a year of unemployment, a year that transformed me from borderline alcoholic into someone with a very real problem, I'm looking at the impending spring with a sense of optimism and rebirth. This alcoholic isn't me. I hate him. I hate drinking. He's someone that emerges around 6PM, a byproduct of boredom and fear.
But I'm more than that. I'm starting over. My career, my social life, I'm revisiting the person I was twenty years ago with the added benefit of hindsight.
I've never been one to learn from my mistakes. I give great advice I rarely follow. Who does't? But if I'm going to be a better person, if I'm going to thrive, I need to recognize my vices and shortcomings along side my strengths.
I keep telling myself, "if I land this job, I'll quit drinking." But no one's listening. Nor should they. The only higher power is myself. I will never land that job, I will never be that better person, until I decide to make myself that better person. This is my war to win. And the sun cresting across Fairmount Park has renewed my hope that this winter - and my struggle with the bottle - will end.
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Originally Posted by Hawkeye13 
Yes there is always possiblity for change--you said this so beautifully and you truly can make it happen philly
Every present moment there is choice. That's what freewill is all about.
Every present moment there is choice. That's what freewill is all about.
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