first time to admit I have addiction :/
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first time to admit I have addiction :/
After 2 years smoking casually synthetic pot in the last 4 months it has turned my life around I no longer know who I'm. I'm no longer working i no longer have any money always broke an alllll I think about is when I can get a buzz again.
I use to smoke 3g a week now I'm on 3g a day.
I have night sweats anxiety head aches but once i have a puff I'm at peace. The buzz only lasts half hour.
I need to stop! Every time I think about stopping it freaks me out. I cant see my life with out it but cant keep living an depending on this synthetic pot.
I think the hard part is no one till now knows I have a addiction
I use to smoke 3g a week now I'm on 3g a day.
I have night sweats anxiety head aches but once i have a puff I'm at peace. The buzz only lasts half hour.
I need to stop! Every time I think about stopping it freaks me out. I cant see my life with out it but cant keep living an depending on this synthetic pot.
I think the hard part is no one till now knows I have a addiction
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Oh gosh thank you...I dont feel so dark an alone.
Synthetic pot has put me in a place I can not describe.
I belive it should be talked about more. Im very embarrassed of my addiction an it has isolated me from my friends family an even my children I live with as i lock myself up an hide from the world.
thank you all for making me feel welcome
Synthetic pot has put me in a place I can not describe.
I belive it should be talked about more. Im very embarrassed of my addiction an it has isolated me from my friends family an even my children I live with as i lock myself up an hide from the world.
thank you all for making me feel welcome
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Kat, I think addiction always isolates us. That's how it maintains its hold on us because it takes away everything we care about. Be kind to yourself and I know that you can do this.
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Welcome!
All forms of addiction are serious business and detrimental to our quality of life.
Feeling controlled and dependant on a substance is painful and grinds at our self esteem. When we "wake up" many of us are a shell of our former self.
My 20 years of drinking took much of me. But now I'm taking back my life one little baby step at a time. You can too!
All forms of addiction are serious business and detrimental to our quality of life.
Feeling controlled and dependant on a substance is painful and grinds at our self esteem. When we "wake up" many of us are a shell of our former self.
My 20 years of drinking took much of me. But now I'm taking back my life one little baby step at a time. You can too!
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Wow I hit jackpot with this website. I would normally wake up put the kettle on while im waiting I go get a joint ready to have with my coffee...this morning I've been awake for 3 hours had 2 cups of coffee AND had no joints I guess the first an best step is to admit your problem
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So nice to see you a little more hopeful, kat. I felt so relieved when I joined SR and found out I was no longer alone. Nothing to be ashamed of here - we all understand what you're going through.
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Im not feeling as embarrassed knowing im not the only one struggling an addiction.
Addiction is such a lonely place when you feel no one understands.
im fighting a war with myself...im proud to have gone all morning with out a joint...im sweating it out...so tempted to go roll one but cant explain how inspired iam to quit now I've found this warm an welcoming web site
Addiction is such a lonely place when you feel no one understands.
im fighting a war with myself...im proud to have gone all morning with out a joint...im sweating it out...so tempted to go roll one but cant explain how inspired iam to quit now I've found this warm an welcoming web site
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Welcome to SR, Kat.
I don't have any experience with pot or synthetic pot; alcohol (wine) was my poison but I know how isolating and defeating an addiction can be.
You can beat this, Kat, and move forward into a healthy and fulfilling future.
SR is a great place; glad you found us.
I don't have any experience with pot or synthetic pot; alcohol (wine) was my poison but I know how isolating and defeating an addiction can be.
You can beat this, Kat, and move forward into a healthy and fulfilling future.
SR is a great place; glad you found us.
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Oh I'm so happy to find somewhere where I can express my thoughts an feelings an not be judged for it...if only I looked for help sooner.
wine was my poison then I found pot then I found synthetic pot..and got lost.
already today I feel lighter evry time I felt like a joint today I've come to this site an it gets me through the next hour.
I didn't wake up thinking off quitting...but woke up depressed sore an sick of feeling like this, thought I cant do another day the way I've been living..thank god for this web site
wine was my poison then I found pot then I found synthetic pot..and got lost.
already today I feel lighter evry time I felt like a joint today I've come to this site an it gets me through the next hour.
I didn't wake up thinking off quitting...but woke up depressed sore an sick of feeling like this, thought I cant do another day the way I've been living..thank god for this web site
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