Made it to two years on March 1st and then.....
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Well, I had 3 years at one time. Moved away from my support system, and decided to have one beer at lunch. Seemed like no big deal at the time. It wasn't long before I was coming home with an 18 pack of beer and a bottle of vodka.
Another time, I had just over a year and decided to go on a trip. Had a drink on the plane. Spent a big part of the next two weeks of this trip looking for liquor stores. Figured I'd clean up my act when I got home. First thing I did when I got off the plane was head to a liquor store.
One thing that's always in the back of my mind is I know for a fact what that one beer will do. One beer = at least two+ lost weeks. No way around it, and believe me, I've tried. John
Another time, I had just over a year and decided to go on a trip. Had a drink on the plane. Spent a big part of the next two weeks of this trip looking for liquor stores. Figured I'd clean up my act when I got home. First thing I did when I got off the plane was head to a liquor store.
One thing that's always in the back of my mind is I know for a fact what that one beer will do. One beer = at least two+ lost weeks. No way around it, and believe me, I've tried. John
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I had 20 years sober when I drank again, very casually, I thought. 
It took me almost two years to finally get sober. I'm not going thru that again.
I hope you can get back to living sober, and find the happiness you seek.
It took me almost two years to finally get sober. I'm not going thru that again.I hope you can get back to living sober, and find the happiness you seek.
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2 years is awesome, a lot of work goes into 2 years, a lot of good work....
I hope that you will stop drinking now....
Emotions can be tough. There has been times in the last 16 months that I thought a drink would go down well but then I remember not only the total crap that drinking brings me but what a poor and fleeting anesthesia it is for my emotions.
I think that it is great you are here and posting and talking about it...talking helps.
I hope that you will stop drinking now....
Emotions can be tough. There has been times in the last 16 months that I thought a drink would go down well but then I remember not only the total crap that drinking brings me but what a poor and fleeting anesthesia it is for my emotions.
I think that it is great you are here and posting and talking about it...talking helps.
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Join Date: Sep 2012
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The problem is we are never cured. We will need to work on our recovery for the rest of our lives. Remember alcoholism is progressive and only gets worse.
You have made it two years and that is not time wasted.
You can do this your life depends on it
You have made it two years and that is not time wasted.
You can do this your life depends on it
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Join Date: Sep 2010
Location: Norfolk, VA
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Sorry to hear you drank. But not surprised. You have seemed to be discontented with sobriety for the whole time. If you do get back to sobriety, I hope you find some happiness in it. Otherwise, you'll just be chasing the hollow contentment of drink.
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I relapsed after 5 & 1/2 years. Started with one beer...no big deal. Drank "normally" for a month or 2 then BANG...Back to drinking exactly like I did in 2008! I was out there in hell for 15 months. I'm sober now & plan to stay that way. Be careful, it's a sneaky disease! Just get right back on track...that's what I would do. Good luck. :-)
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Originally Posted by Charliee 
I also hate being told what to do. I'm just a little bit of a rebel, tell me not to do something I want to do it all the more. Kinda like a child
If someone tells me "not to do it" I also want to do it.
This situation call for a little clever thinking on my part
Maybe they just want to get me to fall into their "trap"!
Hell if I'm going to prove them right.
So just switch it around.
Think the person is telling you that "you will drink"....then you won't
So far so good for me
--from one rebel to another lol--
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Originally Posted by Charliee
So I will just make it "this moment"!!
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Hi Charliee.
It's good that you are stopping now. Something you may want to consider also is working on whatever had made you uneasy recently, given that you thought about drinking and seemed to be feeling quite down for a good while. I would guess that if you are simply just not drinking again and going back to that state, it may not get easier?
It's good that you are stopping now. Something you may want to consider also is working on whatever had made you uneasy recently, given that you thought about drinking and seemed to be feeling quite down for a good while. I would guess that if you are simply just not drinking again and going back to that state, it may not get easier?
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This is a head-scratcher for me. I get the AV working its way back into your thoughts. I get complacency.
But what I don't get is how, after TWO YEARS of sobriety, any alcoholic/problem drinker could consider a relapse to be "no big deal".
I know that if I start drinking again, I will have to recognize my failure and find a way to not fail again. But is seems to me that if I were to consider that failure (my word, I know) to be "no big deal", I would be so much more likely to allow myself to fail.
It also seems to me that, just as quitting, and staying sober for 2 years was a big deal, deciding to drink HAS to be a "big deal", doesn't it?
I am not trying to be unsupportive. I just don't understand.
But what I don't get is how, after TWO YEARS of sobriety, any alcoholic/problem drinker could consider a relapse to be "no big deal".
I know that if I start drinking again, I will have to recognize my failure and find a way to not fail again. But is seems to me that if I were to consider that failure (my word, I know) to be "no big deal", I would be so much more likely to allow myself to fail.
It also seems to me that, just as quitting, and staying sober for 2 years was a big deal, deciding to drink HAS to be a "big deal", doesn't it?
I am not trying to be unsupportive. I just don't understand.
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