Battle of the ages
 

Battling the av right now
Had a work committment but was let go early.
Immediately my head starts saying "ah sunshine, a free afternoon, drinks and a bar" relentless.. Have fought it all afternoon trying to get to the face behind the voice- and its one of fear and loneliness and being out of my routine.
Did some shopping and made it back home.. Sat quietly now with a soft drink.
Can't believe it is so intense..

Good for you for getting through this.

That's the way to make it easier next time.

I quit drinking dozens of times. Maybe more than a hundred. Every time I went back to drinking it was so I would stop thinking about drinking. It was to end the seemingly endless debate going on in my head - should I or shouldn't I drink?

Drinking.
Again.
Never.
Worked.

That AV only seems relentless because you've never outlasted it before. Give it 90 days. The sunnuvabitch relents.

You can do this. :ring

That's true I've never outlasted it!
Just praying to have it shut up
Was quite teary and panicked earlier
Anyway late afternoon sunshine and feeling calmer. AA later

Good job on coming here to help in the heat of the moment, talking it through can always help. A meeting later sounds like a great idea too, enjoy the weather!

I'm glad you outlasted that Jim - the best thing you can do is get used to doing that :)

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Good work!

Push through them when they come - really I never felt better after drinking - don't know why my AV tells me that and I at times think he's right.

Every time you decide to ignore the voice and stay sober you get stronger and the voice eventually weakens.
Congratulations.

Great decision!