Opiate User Hi! I am 23. I first tried painkillers when I was 18 and only used them occasionally... For the last year and half I have been using much more heavily. Recently, I have been able to take 50mg of hydrocodone throughout the day. This is obviously a lot more compared to when 5mg was enough to make me happy. I took 10mg today (all I have left) and would like to go ahead and quit while I am somewhat ahead. Fortunately, I am moving to my home state and have no intention of getting any from my long ago connection. However, I am definitely nervous that I will "give in" and contact him. I constantly think about them and become excited when I know I will be getting some. I'm always bored when I don't have them and become very depressed. I'm happier, nicer, more outgoing, and more positive when I'm high... But I know they will eventually really damage my life. I just want to be a sober sally so badly, lol. I don't want to drink, smoke weed, smoke cigarettes, or take pills anymore. I really don't want to hurt my family and friends by becoming a full blown addict. I was hoping that this forum would be a nice place to get support and give support as well... Thank you for reading! :tyou |
welcome :) I definitely find this place to be great support, and i'm sure you will too we're a similar age too (i'm 24) and i think it's definitely a bit of a challenge to be outgoing and positive while sober, especially when so many our age are using in a casual, more 'normal' way. but one thing that's helping me is to see how 'fake' those feelings are when drunk/high and keeping focussed on how nice it will be to experience these real true happy and contented feelings sober (though i still have a way to go!) the improvements are gradual but rewarding, i'm glad you're here!! |
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Thank you for your reply, immri! How long have you been sober? What was your vice? |
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Originally Posted by meowmeow0000
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Thank you for your reply, immri! How long have you been sober? What was your vice? alcohol was my biggest and longest problem, but I also abused valium and many painkillers regularly and developed a very high tolerance too good on you for identifying its time to quit! i'm so glad I stopped even with all the ups and downs :) |
Originally Posted by Della1968
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Originally Posted by immri
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44 days today, early days and up and down but the longest i've been sober in many many years and things are improving :) alcohol was my biggest and longest problem, but I also abused valium and many painkillers regularly and developed a very high tolerance too good on you for identifying its time to quit! i'm so glad I stopped even with all the ups and downs :) |
Originally Posted by meowmeow0000
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Congratulations! That is wonderful! Did you attend any programs, or have you mainly used this site? I was on the verge of going to rehab after my last relapse, but I detoxed in hospital for a few days - which was physically necessary for me - and now I go to both AA and NA (which I enjoy! I recommend at least trying and seeing if it's for you if you haven't already) and have a sponsor, as well as using this site regularly. it all helps! |
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