Got to day 28 but I really want some wine tonight
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Thanks guys! thank goodness for SR!
Wow thanks so much to all for taking the trouble to help and support - great idea to look at my first post, everyone is so proud of me and I really don't want to let them or myself down but I do admit it is hard. Tonight I will get busy (it's 6pm here in the UK) the comments have brought me back to my senses and I will go out and take in a movie.
This site is so very good - so glad i found you all. I think it is the AV punishing me for starving him for 28 days! - don't know why I think of my monster as male??
I want to sleep tonight and wake up fresh not wake up hungover I will try the cranberry and tonic juice and make a plan to be busy. I feel better coming clean - thanks again - feeling stronger already xx
This site is so very good - so glad i found you all. I think it is the AV punishing me for starving him for 28 days! - don't know why I think of my monster as male??
I want to sleep tonight and wake up fresh not wake up hungover I will try the cranberry and tonic juice and make a plan to be busy. I feel better coming clean - thanks again - feeling stronger already xx
I will NOT drink to that!
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Originally Posted by Nonsensical 
Sometimes I want liquor, too. It's because I am an alcoholic. I am addicted to alcohol and it's allure is strong and defies rational explanation. In the past I have given in to that voice that says surely you've learned your lesson, surely this time will be different.
It is never different. That voice in my head is a liar. I stopped taking advice on things that are important to me from a liar and my life got better.
I had really good reasons to stop drinking. What are yours?
It is never different. That voice in my head is a liar. I stopped taking advice on things that are important to me from a liar and my life got better.
I had really good reasons to stop drinking. What are yours?
Your AV is messing with you. Shut it down....you are stronger than this. (((hugs)))
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"Play the tape" means imagining your thought all the way through. You start with the image of the first glass of wine (the desire), but you add in all the other stuff - the subsequent drunkenness, the angry texting at 2 am, falling down the front stairs, having to tell people you drank, their reactions - (whatever your personal drunken story looks like).
I always think of it as through the image of the craving (the positive fantasy of alcohol) is just the first couple of minutes of the movie - we want you to "play the tape through" to the heartbreaking and disturbing end of the story...
PS - my AV is also male. that's interesting. I wonder how many males have female AVs?
I always think of it as through the image of the craving (the positive fantasy of alcohol) is just the first couple of minutes of the movie - we want you to "play the tape through" to the heartbreaking and disturbing end of the story...
PS - my AV is also male. that's interesting. I wonder how many males have female AVs?
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