almost 6 months, but I'm going to drink today, I've decided.
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Sometimes picking up the drink after a length of sobriety can be a learning experience. Have you forgotten how awful the experience has been in the past? Maybe some more 'research' is required. Go for it if this is what you truly want.
Or.... perhaps you aren't sure. Posting on this forum beforehand, makes me think you want to be talked out of it. Ultimately it's your choosing, nobody can stop you. Perhaps though, you may consider the next 24 hours as a movie. Play the tape to the end... how did the movie end? I think you know how it's going to end if you pick up a drink.
Or.... perhaps you aren't sure. Posting on this forum beforehand, makes me think you want to be talked out of it. Ultimately it's your choosing, nobody can stop you. Perhaps though, you may consider the next 24 hours as a movie. Play the tape to the end... how did the movie end? I think you know how it's going to end if you pick up a drink.
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Drinking to spite anyone or anything cannot feel good. It never has in my experience.
I think feeling disheartened with anything or anyone isn't a great place in which to consider drinking alcohol as you're going to be clouded by anger and hostility. Maybe take a few minutes, go outside, take a few breaths and think again.
If you can go another hour without a drink, then another one...you'll make it a full day and you might feel different. It's worth a try if it means your health, doesn't it?
I think feeling disheartened with anything or anyone isn't a great place in which to consider drinking alcohol as you're going to be clouded by anger and hostility. Maybe take a few minutes, go outside, take a few breaths and think again.
If you can go another hour without a drink, then another one...you'll make it a full day and you might feel different. It's worth a try if it means your health, doesn't it?
I'm sorry you feel that way, we hope you don't drink. We want you happy and free. Of course, nobody's always happy but unhappy even feels better without alcohol. (Things I ever ever thought I'd say for 100... But I digress).
The fact is, when we drink out of spite, that person/place/thing we are drinking TO spite doesn't give a rats ass. All it does is hurt us, the object of our spite is completely unaffected.
Not worth it.
Thinking of you...
The fact is, when we drink out of spite, that person/place/thing we are drinking TO spite doesn't give a rats ass. All it does is hurt us, the object of our spite is completely unaffected.
Not worth it.
Thinking of you...
Ofepiphany-I can relate to being angry and wanting to drink. However, the only person you are hurting are yourself. Alcohol is not going to improve anything that is going on, but will only make things worse for you, especially long-term. I hope you reconsider.
My best guess is that you drank and that some days after I write this, (or perhaps as early as the day following your initial post) you will return to read these responses. I hope that you have not been injured and that you are suffering no more that a hangover and/or some regret about your decision to give in to the fvckits.
Now is the time to plan for what you will do the next time you find yourself in a situation where you just don't care about ANYTHING. You'll need a plan for this because the fvckits have a way of returning in one form or another. Long term sobriety will require a different way to cope. PM me if you like. I may have some ideas for you.
I hope you're ok.
Now is the time to plan for what you will do the next time you find yourself in a situation where you just don't care about ANYTHING. You'll need a plan for this because the fvckits have a way of returning in one form or another. Long term sobriety will require a different way to cope. PM me if you like. I may have some ideas for you.
I hope you're ok.
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I really, really hope you haven't fallen off the wagon, man. If you have, I really hope its just one night or so, so you haven't lost too much of what you've worked for - 6 months is an absolutely insane thing to have achieved for yourself.
And it IS for yourself. The phrase "cutting off your nose to spite your face" springs to mind. As others have said, you shouldn't depend so much on external sources to determine your recovery or relapse. Think of it as making merit to yourself, doing goodness to yourself, and subsequently those you care about (and, admittedly arguing from a position of total ignorance, there must be one or two that you have at least a modicum of care for?).
You're only going to be hurting yourself through this - yourself and others who you come into contact with, who might have done nothing whatsoever to you.
Whatever happens, if you're reading this, know you've still got a community here that care, and want to help.
And it IS for yourself. The phrase "cutting off your nose to spite your face" springs to mind. As others have said, you shouldn't depend so much on external sources to determine your recovery or relapse. Think of it as making merit to yourself, doing goodness to yourself, and subsequently those you care about (and, admittedly arguing from a position of total ignorance, there must be one or two that you have at least a modicum of care for?).
You're only going to be hurting yourself through this - yourself and others who you come into contact with, who might have done nothing whatsoever to you.
Whatever happens, if you're reading this, know you've still got a community here that care, and want to help.
Please post and let us know how you're doing, whether you drank or not.
I have had a few time stressful times where I 've been close to drinking- I 've managed not to, still sober, but sometimes life knocks us sideways when we are not prepared and that shakes everything up.
Hope you are ok, please post ?
I have had a few time stressful times where I 've been close to drinking- I 've managed not to, still sober, but sometimes life knocks us sideways when we are not prepared and that shakes everything up.
Hope you are ok, please post ?
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