Jillian2563

I my new start date is February 22. Day 3 today.

I wanted to share with everyone that on the 22 I think I had a breakthrough. Like an epiphany. That I just don't drink anymore. That I can't. If I want to live my life to the fullest, it will have to be without alcohol. Monday was pretty good. No real cravings. Yesterday was pretty good too. I even decided it's tine for me to change my diet. So since Monday morning, I have been very cautious about what to eat and drink. Have only had water and 1 cup of coffee in the past three days. Well, besides my fresh apple juice I juiced. And hot tea. So I take back the only water comment. Lol

Last night, the missionaries came by for a bit. This was planned as my husband wants to get back active into the church. I was nervous, as I've always been, because I didn't grow up in any church. And the Mormon culture is much different from the churches I have been exposed to. But it went good. And they talked about temptation, which is ironic because it was something we both needed to hear it. One quote was, "a man who is tempted for 5 minutes will never know what's it's like to be tempted for 100 minutes if he gives in".

I did have some cravings last night, and thought about getting just one beer. But I worked through it. I thought about the pros and cons. And all I could think about is the cons, and how my liver won't heal if I don't change my lifestyle. Keeping my faith close to me today, so that I resist and avoid temptation.

strategery

That is awesome you had that breakthrough since it will help move you forward.
Keep up the great work Jillian!

SoberLeigh

Keep on, Jillian. We all need that epiphany moment.

FreeOwl

This is what turned the corner for me....

However, I will suggest a slight edit that made all the difference for me;

"I want to live my life to the fullest, therefore I choose to live it sober"

It says the same essential thing, but it removes the "if" and the "have to". It embraces, it chooses, it isn't a 'missing out on' - but rather a welcoming in and embracing.

Thinking and stating it this way has been a game-changer for me. 14 months and counting.

You can do it.

Jillian2563

I like this quote better! And I will keep your version. Congrats on 14 months!

Nowsthetime

Yes!!! One of the best thing I learned here is that thoughts are just thoughts and we don't have to make them our actions. You sound determined and as it was said before that's the most important step.

This is the beginning of the rest of your life. How exciting!!!

Jillian2563

Nowsthetime, I am excited! Just praying that my strength will continue

24hrsAday

you can do it.. praying does work!

Nowsthetime

Yes it will, yes it will!!! Don't get me wrong, it won't always be easy but as long as you educate yourself and are prepared to handle cravings, you will succeed. I read here (and still do) a lot and I use every tool I learned here. I post, I play the tape, etc. so I do work at it. Most importantly learn how to saparate YOU and your AV. That has really helped me! Keep your eyes on the prize. It's really worth it!

PurpleKnight

You can do this Jillian!! Keep pushing through!!

Jillian2563

Thanks knight!

KateL

Epiphany's are the key thing, I think. We all have them eventually if we look hard enough and if we are lucky they happen without us looking xxxxx

Dee74

I hope this will be your turning point Jillian

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Jillian2563

Thanks D. I'm having a hard time at this very moment. We were outside playing in the snow that we rarely get, and my husband decided to associate with the neighbors (which we've had conflict with and prefer he not). And guess what. He brings home a beer. He says it's okay to have one drink because it's snowing and you don't have to work tomorrow. Yeah right. Maybe for him. So I came inside and cried. I don't know if I cried because of him or because I know I can't drink. Now I'm watching Friends. And drinking Pellegrino with lemon and lime (read a suggestion early today).