Day2
Earth Child
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
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Day2
So here i am Sunday 22 feb 2015 my second day of being clean
got my cup of earl grey tea am listening to a rock radio
Want to go to a meeting t but my husband says he don't want to sit around waiting for me
am thinking about going on the bus on my own thing is am scared ill take a panic attack and have a meltdown ( am loud when i have panic attacks )
but if am ever going to get over my fears i must try and do it
my husband is scared that ill will want to do harm to myself
A few months ago i walked out the house went to the train station was going to jump under a train but i stopped myself i was missing for 3 hours my husband called the police ...i managed to take myself to the mental hospital who called my husband he and the police took me home
i then had to go to a crisis house for a few days i dont know if i can trust myself
got my cup of earl grey tea am listening to a rock radio
Want to go to a meeting t but my husband says he don't want to sit around waiting for me
am thinking about going on the bus on my own thing is am scared ill take a panic attack and have a meltdown ( am loud when i have panic attacks )
but if am ever going to get over my fears i must try and do it
my husband is scared that ill will want to do harm to myself
A few months ago i walked out the house went to the train station was going to jump under a train but i stopped myself i was missing for 3 hours my husband called the police ...i managed to take myself to the mental hospital who called my husband he and the police took me home
i then had to go to a crisis house for a few days i dont know if i can trust myself
Earth Child
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
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BernieE No there no one else i have no friends and i have no family either just my husband ...my husband said he will take me there in the car and i have to make it back on my own
i will have only 50p on me and my bus pass the bus only takes 10 mins to get back from the church where the meeting is i have my phone on me as well and i can call my husband at any point
waywardson8260 thank you
i will have only 50p on me and my bus pass the bus only takes 10 mins to get back from the church where the meeting is i have my phone on me as well and i can call my husband at any point
waywardson8260 thank you
Hears The Voice
Join Date: Jan 2013
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Sounds like a plan!
I was anxious at my first meeting. Afterwards I wondered why. I met several nice people and heard lots of folks talk about things I could relate to. I felt very relieved afterwards. Like OMG - I'm not the only one!
Good Luck!
I was anxious at my first meeting. Afterwards I wondered why. I met several nice people and heard lots of folks talk about things I could relate to. I felt very relieved afterwards. Like OMG - I'm not the only one!
Good Luck!
Earth Child
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
Posts: 2,004
strategery they will not take me as i havent drank or taken drugs for 3 years and 7 week but am relapsed because i self injured and that is also an addiction so am on days 2 of that
my husband is also my carer he makes sure am safe most of the time
Am not feeling suicidal at the moment i lost my step dad to suicide it hurt my family so much the reason i said i had no family was because they are too busy with there own life's i don't want to upset thing with my family
i have no friend at the moment i did have one friend who would go on and on about drinking and i had cut ties with him
Nonsensical thank you
my husband is also my carer he makes sure am safe most of the time
Am not feeling suicidal at the moment i lost my step dad to suicide it hurt my family so much the reason i said i had no family was because they are too busy with there own life's i don't want to upset thing with my family
i have no friend at the moment i did have one friend who would go on and on about drinking and i had cut ties with him
Nonsensical thank you
Do your best
Join Date: Aug 2014
Posts: 67,047
Hi DA well done on day 2 of no self harm your doing really well
Have you considered counselling CBT or seeing a psychologist to get treatment for the addiction to self harm ?
Your going to make so many friends here DA spk soon bud
Have you considered counselling CBT or seeing a psychologist to get treatment for the addiction to self harm ?
Your going to make so many friends here DA spk soon bud
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Location: California
Posts: 44
Call your local central office and ask them to have a woman in the program call you so that you can get a ride to a meeting. There are options.....just reach out. Many of us want to help and need to in order for us to stay sober.
Earth Child
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My husband wants me to try it on my own as he says i need to get out of my comfort zone
he wants me to get better with the panic attacks and that
the bus only takes 10 mins from where the place is and that if we find it
its near some where were know am taking my phone with me
i Also i don't have the AA local number id need to look it up
i see a psychologist ,psychiatrist and family dr they are very supportive
av only had 6 sessions with my psychologist she teying to work on my self esteem
I dont see myself as someone worth anything the reason i self harm so much is because of trauma
thank you all for posting back to me
i hope you are well
he wants me to get better with the panic attacks and that
the bus only takes 10 mins from where the place is and that if we find it
its near some where were know am taking my phone with me
i Also i don't have the AA local number id need to look it up
i see a psychologist ,psychiatrist and family dr they are very supportive
av only had 6 sessions with my psychologist she teying to work on my self esteem
I dont see myself as someone worth anything the reason i self harm so much is because of trauma
thank you all for posting back to me
i hope you are well
Magsie
Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: UK
Posts: 26,640
I'm sorry you're going through so much, Darkyasylum.
I know, for me, when I was drinking my self esteem was nowhere to be found. It took some time to build it up. I know drinking was the cause for me, but there can be underlying problems, too.
I'm pleased you're getting professional help. Please keep in contact, sometimes talking to people you don't know helps. xx
I know, for me, when I was drinking my self esteem was nowhere to be found. It took some time to build it up. I know drinking was the cause for me, but there can be underlying problems, too.
I'm pleased you're getting professional help. Please keep in contact, sometimes talking to people you don't know helps. xx
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Location: Toronto
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Just the fact that you have been sober for over 3 years from alcohol shows that you have a lot of strength. Anyone who deals with their own addictions has a lot to offer others, I know that what you and everyone else on SR post helps me immensely. You are helping a lot of people and we all feel what you have to say is very worthwhile!
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