Drinking again
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Don't give up Salgal! I have failed a few times myself over the past couple of years, but I am trying again. The people here have offered so much support, and it really helps. Come here and talk about it when you have the urge to drink. Hugs!
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I will start again. I'm just feeling "sick of myself" as that old song from the 90s goes.
And the lyric from the old Sinatra ballad "Drinking again" suited me tonight. Unfortunately. But I listened to it-written by an alkie, and sing by one too.
Not giving up!!
And the lyric from the old Sinatra ballad "Drinking again" suited me tonight. Unfortunately. But I listened to it-written by an alkie, and sing by one too.
Not giving up!!
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Originally Posted by gracetuesday 
Salgal, for a very long time, I absolutely refused to accept the fact that I am an alcoholic... I remember something one of the counselors used to say in my 4th treatment center: "acceptance and change.... i can't change what I won't accept..." There is a quote in the Big Book that I have on my door "until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober..."
There will ALWAYS be an excuse to drink.
There is a book I learned about here on SR - "Under the Influence." It has really opened my eyes about my physiological response to alcohol. One of the most profound passages I read was this: "Perhaps alcohol's most surprising property is its ability to relieve the distress it creates in the first place. An alcoholic suffering from withdrawal has only one priority: alcohol. A malnourished alcoholic does not want food; he wants alcohol. Alcoholics drink because drinking makes them feel good. Only when they stop drinking do they experience the full effect of alcohol's disruptions in the body."
That is precisely WHY I drank. Not because I am a loser, or a moral defective; but rather because booze soothed the disruptions in my nervous system it created in the first place. What a viscous cycle.
Wishing you a sober day tomorrow!
There will ALWAYS be an excuse to drink.
There is a book I learned about here on SR - "Under the Influence." It has really opened my eyes about my physiological response to alcohol. One of the most profound passages I read was this: "Perhaps alcohol's most surprising property is its ability to relieve the distress it creates in the first place. An alcoholic suffering from withdrawal has only one priority: alcohol. A malnourished alcoholic does not want food; he wants alcohol. Alcoholics drink because drinking makes them feel good. Only when they stop drinking do they experience the full effect of alcohol's disruptions in the body."
That is precisely WHY I drank. Not because I am a loser, or a moral defective; but rather because booze soothed the disruptions in my nervous system it created in the first place. What a viscous cycle.
Wishing you a sober day tomorrow!
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"I'm tired of fighting, tired of fighting, fighting for a lost cause..."
I'm always amazed at how strangers can express what I feel better than I can myself.
And Kanye can **** off. Beck is an incredible artist.
I'm always amazed at how strangers can express what I feel better than I can myself.
And Kanye can **** off. Beck is an incredible artist.
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Originally Posted by Chuck39
From another chronic day-oner, thank you for posting. Don't give up hope. One of these times it will stick. I have to believe that ... all these struggles cannot be for naught. Head up Salgal!
Welcome to Day 1, Salgal, the best day of the rest of your life!!
Xoxo
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